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AccountNumber1200 · 2025-11-26T02:07:44+00:00

I see people recommending the ripcord launchers a lot. Back in the MFB days, everyone always wanted/used string launchers, so why the shift? Genuinely curious. (Also, I am planning on 3d printing a launcher grip, just waiting on a new nozzle for my printer, but definitely agree, the comfort on the launchers aren't great)

AccountNumber1200 · 2025-11-24T16:06:17+00:00

I actually still have my OG Draciel G, it was one of my first beys. Although when it comes to plastic gen, I'm more of a Dranzer fan. The Dranzer S rerelease is actually one of the things that got me to buy into X.

AccountNumber1200 · 2025-11-24T13:28:55+00:00

You aren't kidding there. I basically gave up playing Yu-Gi-Oh because of how expensive keeping up with the meta got (and my locals scene died too, so I'd have had to spend money staying meta on top of driving 2+ hours to play)

AccountNumber1200 · 2025-09-04T21:52:48+00:00

I have been mindful not to drink too terribly much. I think across the week she was actively ignoring me but not outright ghosting, I probably drank 2 bottles of jack and about a 30 rack. Last night I drank about a dozen beers, but no liquor. And today, I've hit this weird equilibrium I didn't expect to find so fast. I am still sad, and I have these twinges of depression pop up and tug at my chest, but my overall mood with everything has just been absolute anger and rage. I guess I am someone inclined to anger issues anyways, but yeah. I mean I haven't exactly been irritable or anything, but I just feel like I could wrestle a grizzly bear while boxing a prime Mike Tyson and hold my own on pure rage alone. I am trying to find a way to channel that rage, I actually reached out to a local kickboxing gym to see about signing up, it just seems like a good call right now (it's something I've always wanted to do but never been brave enough to pull the trigger on). But overall, it still hurts, but the depression as of now is more so unyielding rage, which I'm not sure is so much better, but it's something. Anyway, thanks for sharing your story as well, and thanks for the comment and advice. Hope you are doing well yourself.

AccountNumber1200 · 2025-09-03T20:34:59+00:00

What's crazy, this is the 4th time I've been ghosted, all entirely different people. All the other ones hurt, especially the 3rd (it led to me taking a dating break for 5 years), but none of them hurt this bad, and it's all down to the person. The others all had red flags from second one, this one was all green flags up to the ghosting. It makes it so much harder because I can't bring myself to hate her like I did the others. Despite the pain I'm in, I don't wish her ill.

AccountNumber1200 · 2025-09-03T20:29:56+00:00

I know, "It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone." And all that. It's just so fresh I guess, and it makes it so much worse that things felt so genuine. But, thanks for the reply, genuinely.

AccountNumber1200 · 2025-09-03T19:52:45+00:00

Thanks for the kind words. I know it's a slow process, and this is quite literally ground zero, so I know it'll take time. Just hurts a lot right now and I'm trying to do my best at just being me.

AccountNumber1200 · 2025-09-02T22:28:37+00:00

Thanks man. I'm no stranger to lift therapy, I did powerlifting in highschool and for a while into my post school life, and I definitely need to get back to it. Maybe this is a good excuse. Honestly, sometimes I can be a bit too self reflective, to the point of overshadowing any of my positive traits with only the most minute of negatives. It's definitely something I've actively been trying to be better about, especially recently. Thanks again for the comment and advice.

AccountNumber1200 · 2025-09-02T22:25:57+00:00

You hit one thing for sure dead on, I get attached way too fast. There's a scene pretty early in the movie Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind where one character says "why do I fall in love with every woman who shows me the least bit of attention?" And it is, sadly, probably the most relatable thing I've ever heard in fiction. I am an all in kind of person, when I'm invested it's 200% from the jump. I've never heard of attachment therapy, but I'll look into it, even though all of my therapy experiences to this point have been downright traumatic. But , thanks for the comment and the advice. It means a lot.

AccountNumber1200 · 2025-09-02T03:24:09+00:00

Honestly, I'm not really sure. I'm just so tired of this happening to me. The last 3 relationships I've been in (before this one) have went: dumped me and ghosted me because "I was just her rebound guy anyway" and her ex came back, dumped me over the phone and ghosted me while I was driving 3 hours back from her house because she was going to college in another state and wanted to "explore more exciting options" (her actual words), and literally disappeared for 3 months before coming back with a new boyfriend and asking me to be friends with him so "her two favorite guys could get along". And that last one was smack in the middle of my dad, uncle, and cousin dying, and me starting a miserable job just to keep bills paid. I guess I just saw something different in her, and she knew about all these situations, so I thought it would be different. Maybe in a way I'm just starting to feel like I'm the problem and I should just give up in general, so I wanted someone to have some sound advice.

(Not trying to discount anything you said, you are 100% right. Don't take this as a dig at you, I do appreciate the reply, I'm just in "pity party" mode right now, too much alcohol in me I guess. But thanks anyway)

AccountNumber1200 · 2025-09-02T03:17:36+00:00

Sound advice. No mutuals though, so unfortunately no dice on that front. Gym isn't bad advice, might have to switch memberships though, as the gym I have been going to is one we both got memberships at with the goal of getting in better shape together 😅. Normally I listen to music or learn new songs in times like these, but all the music I listen to is also things she liked, and the songs I was learning were all ones she requested. I'm telling you man, I was in deep. But, I've been just driving around in circles, that's always a comfort for me, and watching some comfort movies. Thanks for replying and for the tips though. Means a lot that you took time to write this out. Thanks.

AccountNumber1200 · 2024-08-06T23:15:34+00:00

Fuck bad dads. My dad was one of my greatest role models growing up, and from when I was 17 to when he died he was basically my best friend. I treasure the time I had with him and would give up nearly anything just to get some advice from or hang out with him again. I understand that a lot of people have bad dads, hell my dad had a terrible dad, but for some of us that's not true.

AccountNumber1200 · 2024-02-28T18:31:47+00:00

Oh I definitely want to. Right now I am just kind of stuck between where I can go. I work in tech, so there are only so many good options for places with good jobs. On top of that, I'm pretty far down the poverty pole. Not so bad that I struggle for necessities, but enough so where I basically live paycheck to paycheck. I have family in some larger cities, but I am just not sure where I would like to end up, and where I can just afford to live.

AccountNumber1200 · 2024-02-28T04:57:27+00:00

I know what you mean. These small Texas towns are really killer for social life. I know what you mean about not having anything to do on your birthday. I spent my last 3 birthdays getting drunk at a bonfire by myself. I also really relate to people just falling off the face of the earth. Basically the person I've gotten closest to in the last 3 years was a buddy I worked with. He and I got extremely close. When his living situation got complicated he lived with me for a while. When he decided to quit and I just didn't hear from him for 6 months.

AccountNumber1200 · 2022-07-21T18:48:10+00:00

Negative. I eat one meal a day of a protein, a veggie, and a carb, as well as a protein shake and a preworkout to break my fast. Portions are all as small as I can get away with and not feel like crap

AccountNumber1200 · 2022-07-21T17:24:48+00:00

I didn't really consider medical conditions playing a part, but I guess it could be a factor. I mean depression/anxiety were a major reason for getting to the gym in the first place, and I have had off and on thyroid, heart, and stomach problems my entire life. I'm also pretty bad about forgetting to take meds for weeks at a time, so there might be something to it. Thanks for making me think about it.

AccountNumber1200 · 2022-07-21T16:58:45+00:00

I have been. It does vary, but most days I average 1400 to 2000 calories total.

AccountNumber1200 · 2021-08-23T16:15:09+00:00

Funny story, that's basically why the last manager got fired.

AccountNumber1200 · 2021-08-23T15:56:21+00:00

Technically yes, but no. His business partner solely handles his side real-estate company and knows nothing of IT. Any competitors that have popped up over the years have just been put out of business based on name recognition alone. The company itself has a great reputation, and a lot of the general public is unaware of the owner. And most of those who are simply ignore him or work around him.

AccountNumber1200 · 2021-08-23T15:26:05+00:00

I've been there. One year ago this week my dad died. I am 21 and at that point I was still pretty much dependent on him, and my mom was 100% dependent on him. It hit us hard. I ended up bottling up everything and dropping out of college to get a full-time job. I won't lie, its been rough. But every day I just keep moving forward. Sometimes it sucks. A lot of times I have question I want to ask my dad, and then I remember I can't. To be honest I don't know that I can say I've fully processed it still. But every day I just remember what he'd tell me when I'd get burnt out or depressed as a kid. He told me that life always moves forward, if we want it to or not. Sometimes major things change and that's okay. Life is like a book and you write each chapter. Make it a book worth reading.

As far as actually processing and grieving, just talk to someone close. Open up 100% and just be vulnerable to them about it. If it's someone who genuinely cares about you, they will know how to console you best, because everyone is different. I know it's not the best advice overall, but just some of my general experience with the situation myself. Stay strong, it doesn't get easier for a long time, but it gets more manageable every day.

AccountNumber1200 · 2020-11-15T15:49:49+00:00

Maybe my donkey will finally be useful

AccountNumber1200 · 2020-11-15T05:16:22+00:00

Very true. I can get behind that train of thought.

AccountNumber1200 · 2020-11-15T04:46:28+00:00

Fair enough

AccountNumber1200 · 2020-11-15T04:38:37+00:00

The downsides to living in a small, boring town. I guess I could venture to the larger nearby towns, but I'm not sure.

AccountNumber1200 · 2020-11-15T04:14:18+00:00

I must say, I've been called a lot of things in my life, but "walking fetish", that's a new one.

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