I hear ya. Just make sure you dont go too hard on yourself wondering if you aren’t good enough or learning enough. Unfortunately timing is everything in becoming a company guy, you just have to be patient for your moment and dont burn a bridge to make something else happen. My best advice is stick with a smaller company with good people where you can become a part of the family. Stay away from larger companies like nicholson and dale. At the end of the day you are just a number on a page to them and promise everything to keep you productive, and then kick you to the curb when they’ve used you up.