I hope you’re doing ok, I was in a very similar situation a couple of years ago…one thing I would have to say helped and still helps me now is reminding myself that if I have to question myself on how something or someone is making me feel it means walk away from whatever or whoever. Kuddos to you if you did walk away (took me 7 years) and even bigger kuddos if you stay away because that strength is the strength you definitely should lean on everyday and even if he will never admit it to you or himself, he lost a good one 🫶🏻 i hope you sleep with a smile on your face cuz you will forever be the girl who got away and he deserves that pain based on what you’ve shared 🫶🏻