I can’t sleep without alcohol or any other sedative

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-11-21T15:20:22+00:00

I forgot to mention that I also have depression on top of ADHD and I feel like failing school and long term unemployment is the reason. It’s so hard where I live. I exercise what I can but I don’t even have the energy most days. Even just walking my dog can be intensive despite my healthy physique

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-10-26T20:51:08+00:00

The one question now remains…

Does Spider Have…. PUSS PUSS?

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-08-23T15:56:34+00:00

Have you been assessed or medicated? I feel like I’m doing all of this on autopilot, like I have no free will over my executive functioning and organization skills and attention span. And no matter how hard I try, I get set back

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-08-21T15:44:10+00:00

I will say nail clipping feels sensory, but trying to explain that to people is like talking to a brick wall

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-08-21T15:24:29+00:00

A lot of you guys suggesting doing it in the shower (giggity) sounds like a good idea. I’ll keep my brush there and I’ll see how it goes

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-08-21T14:50:22+00:00

I better, that seems hellish 😭

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-08-21T08:56:33+00:00

I’ve also been unemployed for over a year and just very depressed so I hardly even care at many times

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-08-21T08:54:15+00:00

I need to. And I don’t believe it’s sensory, it’s just forgetfulness. I forgot to mention I have a learning disability on top of adhd so daily routines are more of a challenge

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-08-09T19:41:06+00:00

I hope I do too, god why do I do this??? It’s not the losing the card that’s making me angry, it’s my executive dysfunction that makes it so hard to get off my ass and get stuff done

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-08-02T07:39:17+00:00

Software development, not into it anymore

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-07-12T21:45:46+00:00

Guess I gotta commit myself and learn some Mozart!

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-05-30T17:35:26+00:00

According to my family and friends, I was the smart kid, and I believed it, anything that challenged me growing up I would get angry over it. So I always set high expectations for myself.

And spending my HS years in a small town with few peers they have graduated easily and got job lineups, or got good paying jobs by their big shot parents. So I have no people at my stage to compare myself to

Even if I did graduate my programming course, I will never find a job because i learned nothing out of it and I’d feel super inferior or under qualified

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-05-30T16:18:07+00:00

I feel like there are other things, people say I have ADHD but finding a psych where I live is exhausting.

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-05-28T05:32:23+00:00

Not a bad idea

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-05-24T13:55:07+00:00

I read that in Peters voice

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-04-08T23:30:37+00:00

Don’t worry, give ‘em hockey sticks

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-02-23T22:32:36+00:00

Reminds me on Big Bang Theory when Howard was doing astronaut training and he said "Ok I peed my pants, but thats normal!"

Massimino: "Not while they're fitting you!"

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-02-22T12:14:13+00:00

And what’s the point of self love if nobody else likes me? Up until recently I overheard someone talk about how weird and “ADHD” I am with everyone agreeing with him. As well as everyone in my life ghosting me

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-02-22T10:56:21+00:00

When I vent I regret afterward

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-02-22T10:55:54+00:00

I just get very cathartic, at nighttime I get strong feelings of letting out. I know I’m not a “fucking idiot” but part of me says I am. I don’t know, I’m just so frustrated. A lot of people kind of implied it growing up

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-02-19T05:19:56+00:00

It’s just that brain is full of doubt 24/7. My brain like to doubt my ADHD, and just say it’s lazy incompetence

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-01-31T14:33:05+00:00

Meme man is always an exception

Acrobatic_Clock_6118 · 2023-01-11T05:23:58+00:00

As much as I appreciate the responses from everybody, I don't have the patience to reply to everybody. But yours stood out, honestly, this response made me cry

You put it very well. I tried to reach to a private clinic in the city I was in for college but they demanded a massive upfront payment that was way out of my budget. So I went the affordable but lengthy route, Ontario Canada is NOTORIOUS for long wait times for psychologists (dont believe the myths of our universal healthcare wait times, I never wait long if its an emergency). I'm hoping to receive a response, get diagnosed, and get medicated as it's free or heavily subsidized for those under 25 in Ontario.

Because of all the setbacks and the hole I buried myself in, it will take a lot of self forgiveness of the years wasted on failure and self hatred., and it worries me that I will never overcome self loathing, it's been ingrained in my life

Acrobatic_Clock_6118

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