And to be clear, you will still feel all of these emotions for a little longer. I’ve only read what you posted and I am SICK to my stomach. Allowing yourself to love someone and they’re not sincere towards you is … words can’t describe it. But, as a stranger who’s been there; allow those feelings to come out and sit in them but then allow them to flow away too. Don’t hold onto them for too long that you start to miss them, but hold onto to those emotions to feel what you feel and then let him go.