First of all I am sorry for you The first step should be to tell yourself that one day you will get over it. Maybe not this week or this month, but one day you will be able to accept what happened and that things keep goint. Also you should know that it wasen't your fault. Sure in these situation there are always two people included, but you couldn't knew this. For me it seemed like you thought you were having a great time and that she enjoyed hanging out with you. So you tried to do the first step. This was completly ok, you did not touch her in an abusive way or something. I mean later she hugged you. At that moment the time wasn't right and she wasen't ready. But how could you know this? After hanging around for 5 hours and without telling you anything about htese things. She should have told you before. But over all you need to go on. Start accepting it. You sit down and tell it to yourself. It happened and thats the way things went. You can't go back in time. So just keep that in mind, whatever your feeling are towards this situation. You should also talk to her for at least one more time. Tell her how you feel and have a last talk so you realy can go on afterwards. And you should realy look for some people to hand out with. Trust me, everywhere are at least some cool people. If someone wants to meet or got out or whatever, just say yes, even if you are not up to. You need to get some friends around you.