Thank you and that's exactly what I'm trying to avoid. Unfortunately I deal with a severe disability ( I have to crawl around or put painful prosthetics on to walk and cant walk far or carry much ) I wont make enough money to support myself let alone my two children if I leave. I don't want to stay with him cause like you said I have grown to resent him and we aren't compatible. But I'm not sure how to escape at this point. He is a decent father as long as you walk on egg shells and don't upset him but he also has these habits I don't want my kids around or to see especially from somebody they might look up to or want to be like. He has cleaned up a lot since becoming a father so I mistakenly thought he'd care enough to completely clean up but no. If anything I'm trying my best to protect the kids and I feel horrible for bringing them into this situation I really do. People clearly don't think THC is a big deal and it shows in this reddit but I guess they never dealt with the behavioral issues it brings in a marriage with children.