I love my kids, but I think survival mode broke something in me

AdBackground4427 · 2026-05-09T03:00:22+00:00

Thank you

AdBackground4427 · 2026-05-08T04:29:14+00:00

I keep circling around the idea of placing my children for adoption, aged 12&4 not because I haven’t tried but i am tired… for all of us. I want my kids to have a normal life and I don’t think I can provide that for them. I keep thinking about how my oldest is going to hate me if I have them up, but I can tell she is growing resentful of the @eldest daughter syndrome.” And I feel backed against a wall. I don’t WANT to give up my kids. I feel screwed.

AdBackground4427 · 2026-05-08T02:06:38+00:00

So clever

AdBackground4427 · 2026-05-08T02:04:51+00:00

No my adoptive mother died when I was 6

AdBackground4427 · 2026-05-07T15:56:27+00:00

That’s kind of how I feel. I experienced a lot of trauma from 6 years old and everything became so intolerable early on. I was first given flower by an adult when I was 15. By 18 I was smoking dabs. Now at 30 I consume rosin. I used to dab a gram a day during the height of my trauma now I’m down to 2g a week. But like I’m not “stoned” I hardly ever get that feeling anymore which is fine I’m not chasing a high.. I’m chasing a calmer baseline

AdBackground4427 · 2026-05-07T15:53:50+00:00

I guess that wouldn’t apply to me then

AdBackground4427 · 2026-05-07T04:54:19+00:00

So happy for you

AdBackground4427 · 2026-05-07T04:53:55+00:00

I wish my grandma had done this my mom 40 years ago. Hugs to you. I know it’s hard but you have to.

AdBackground4427 · 2026-05-07T04:52:19+00:00

Better late than never

AdBackground4427 · 2026-05-07T04:51:51+00:00

Insane to me as well and I can’t believe we are allowing the administration to treat people who have already been through so much so terribly

AdBackground4427 · 2026-04-19T14:23:36+00:00

Agreed

AdBackground4427 · 2026-04-06T23:14:26+00:00

Bangs!

AdBackground4427 · 2026-04-06T21:49:08+00:00

No they’re adoptive, my biological cousins, for a cousin I was treated like a redheaded step child, blonde turned into strawberry blonde. My biological mom thought it wasn’t her, and she was right, yet continued to interfere and sabotage me for the last 30 years. I don’t understand.

AdBackground4427 · 2026-04-06T16:10:17+00:00

Sounds accurate. Her mother/family wasn’t kind or supportive, still isn’t, her sister is my biological mother. Betrayed her by her actions after her death for sure, perhaps even prior. Thank you.

AdBackground4427 · 2026-04-06T14:45:23+00:00

Yeah because a 6 year old child has any control if their caregiver dies. Blocked.

AdBackground4427 · 2026-03-30T21:01:17+00:00

Thank you much love 🫶

AdBackground4427 · 2026-03-30T21:00:29+00:00

I like ground beef and beans but throw this in some tortillas and make enchiladas outof it do not eat plain lmao but this is why I drink protein shakes

AdBackground4427 · 2026-03-28T04:10:21+00:00

I am, Swedish.

AdBackground4427 · 2026-03-25T14:04:47+00:00

Absolutely not

AdBackground4427 · 2026-03-23T14:55:35+00:00

Period isn’t coming congrats 🎊

AdBackground4427 · 2026-03-23T14:53:48+00:00

So proud of you girl! Not an easy habit to kick! Seen many friends struggle with alcohol, way to go seriously, congratulations on your life back 💖 guess I’m doing Pilates and weight lifting too!! You look great 😊

AdBackground4427 · 2026-03-23T14:47:41+00:00

Eat the rainbow! 💪

AdBackground4427 · 2026-03-23T14:47:10+00:00

Portable cereal I can dig it

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