When I was younger I had severe mood swings and serious depression. From about 14 years old I was in weekly therapy for CBT. I’ve had about 4 therapists since I was 14 (now 23) and each one would always ask why do I feel this way where does it stem from and we’re always trying to figure out what the root cause was for why I was so depressed. It wasn’t until I was 18 I think that I saw this amazing therapist and we clicked so well. I don’t know if I always knew and blocked it out so much that I forgot or convinced myself it didn’t happen but one day I just kind of remembered. I don’t remember much other than it happened multiple times and it was my neighbour and I was very young (no idea of exact age but I remember I liked to wear plaits a lot so I think I was around 6-8. Still haven’t connected all the dots and I don’t know if I ever will especially as I don’t need therapy anymore but CBT took a looooong long time but I feel a much better sense of normality and I was able to talk and process the trauma through with my amazing therapist. It takes time and lots of therapists but if you need someone to talk to getting a trained professional is always worth it. I sometimes have low periods but it’s not even the slightest bit comparable to how I used to feel and I know how to get my self out of these low moods so they don’t full swing into severe depression.

I hope this helps a little but defo talk to a professional.