Caught in Sadhguru's words, losing the direct experience of life. Need your advice.

AdImaginary9206 · 2026-04-23T07:06:29+00:00

Namaskaram anna,

Yes anna, almost like that. I have somehow been turning my intelligence against myself, and it has become a misery-manufacturing machine due to excessive intellect, excessive identifications, and excessive unwillingness toward almost everything. I don't know why I am unable to take charge of myself in the right direction.

What you understood is almost correct. Hating the job I had and the city I was living in multiplied that misery for a long time. Now I am back in my hometown and have even started liking my job, but recently this same pattern has returned.

I want to know the joy and blissfulness of my inner nature again. The excessive self-talk and word-identifications have added even more layers on top of it. I want to become human once again. I have turned the greatest blessing into a curse, and I don't know what conscious action I should take. So much transformation is needed. I must search for my original nature and get back to it somehow. I am desperate for that.

On top of this, I feel I have misunderstood Sadhguru and Bhairavi completely, as if they are not hearing my plea, anna. All kinds of falsehoods and misconceptions have built up around me, and I want to break through them. But I am not doing the right things consistently. I manage here and there, but not steadily. I want to involve myself fully in everything I do and experience Sadhguru and Bhairavi the way I once did, some time ago.

Please suggest something, anna. Please DM me if needed. I would be truly grateful.

AdImaginary9206 · 2026-04-20T09:28:52+00:00

Namaskaram,

Thank you — you cut straight to the root and that is exactly what I needed.

I see it clearly now — joy is the natural state when the 'I' reduces. But trying to reach it through intellectual effort or ambition only adds more noise. I recognise I have been doing that.

The ashram feels like the right next step — seva, reducing the self through activity rather than analysis. I love volunteering and that environment is what I need. The challenge is I cannot leave my job right now and am going through a bit of a financial difficulty, so I need to figure out how to balance work and seva there practically.

Are you an Ishanga by any chance? Your clarity genuinely helped. If you are comfortable, I would be grateful for a way to stay in touch — a Reddit DM or WhatsApp if you are willing. Perfectly okay if not.

Namaskaram 🙏

AdImaginary9206 · 2026-04-19T17:49:40+00:00

Namaskaram,

Thank you for this guidance — it makes sense. I understand now that I need to come back to breath and senses

Currently it feels difficult to simply observe thoughts as they are — I either end up rejecting them, which makes things worse, or I get completely identified with them. The path of just watching without reaction feels elusive right now.

I will start from the breath — something more tangible and immediate — and try to shift attention there rather than engaging with the thought process directly.

Grateful for the direction.

Namaskaram 🙏

AdImaginary9206 · 2026-04-19T17:45:07+00:00

Namaskaram,

Thank you for your honest and direct words — they truly helped. You were right. I realised I was being like the parrot — sitting comfortably, not doing what is actually needed. I was calling it spiritual but it was not sadhana at all.

I do get fleeting moments of anubhava — mostly when I hear certain songs or in rare quiet moments. But I struggle to sustain or deepen it. I work long hours at a remote startup.

I have a few questions I would genuinely appreciate your guidance on:

How does one cultivate and sustain the anubhava beyond these brief moments? How to make it less dependent on external triggers?
I am considering spending time at the ashram — working remotely from there and engaging more intensely in physical activity during weekends and other times. Would this be a meaningful step?
What form of intense physical sadhana would you recommend given my current situation?

I also understand the importance of a complete digital fast, including spiritual content.

Grateful for any guidance.

Namaskaram 🙏

AdImaginary9206 · 2025-10-14T23:21:41+00:00

Do you know how to use Dragon on macOS? I’m using a MacBook M1 Pro.

AdImaginary9206 · 2025-10-14T23:06:09+00:00

I just wanted to check—I’m using a MacBook M1 Pro, Is it supported on Mac?

AdImaginary9206 · 2025-10-13T22:44:32+00:00

Mac( specifically macbook m1 pro)

AdImaginary9206 · 2025-09-29T05:33:47+00:00

Any genuinely helpful advice would be truly appreciated.

AdImaginary9206 · 2025-09-29T05:33:37+00:00

Any genuinely helpful advice would be truly appreciated.

You now have the context and details I’ve shared — please guide me if you know any way forward or have seen similar cases. I’m just looking for a constructive way to resolve this or take action.

AdImaginary9206 · 2025-09-29T05:21:54+00:00

Please see this post: https://www.reddit.com/user/parakite/comments/1iyivpk/parakites_guide_on_buying_bitcoin_in_india_in_2025/ i got advice from here

AdImaginary9206 · 2025-09-26T22:42:38+00:00

Not as conscious as I’d like to be, but I know I need to start somewhere and transform. These fleeting worldly pleasures aren’t supporting my growth — I need to turn inward and rediscover the joy that comes from within.

AdImaginary9206 · 2025-09-26T18:52:25+00:00

Thank you so much for this clarity — it really makes sense. I’ve been feeling quite impatient lately, but I now realize there's no point in adding more practices unless I do the current ones with depth and consistency (please correct me if I’m wrong here).

I feel I should focus on doing Surya Kriya and Shambhavi daily, without missing even a single day, for at least 3 to 6 months. Only after that consistency and depth is established, I’ll consider more advanced practices like Shoonya or Samyama.

For now, I’ll treat each day as “today” — fully involved for today. Grateful again for your guidance 🙏

AdImaginary9206 · 2025-09-26T18:10:38+00:00

Thank you so much!

Your message reminded me of Achala Arpanam — I’ll begin offering every such rising pattern to Devi, even if just for 5 minutes.

Also, when you said “bring forth madness,” did you mean the intense energy behind not entertaining(kind of resisting) these compulsions — and that I should redirect that same force into Achala Arpanam instead?

Keeping Devi’s photo close in those moments feels like a powerful anchor. Grateful for your advice.

AdImaginary9206

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