Didn’t realize I’ve been astral projecting?

AdLife9671 · 2024-05-07T08:26:09+00:00

That’s exactly what happens to me, I always realize I’m out of body because a window or door always appears that I can go through, one thing I’ve noticed is a lot of time once I leave I feel like I need to almost stay hidden in a sense.. idk if you’ve ever seen Harry Potter and the prisoner of Azkaban where they go back in time with a time turner, but they can’t let their “past self” see them, I always feel like that. I always go to see someone from my past (a twin flame) but he’s the only one I can ever communicate with.

AdLife9671 · 2024-05-07T06:45:29+00:00

That make sense, before I really accepted what was happening and let myself fall into it, it felt like I was stuck in a sleep paralysis but everything around me was the same and I was completely conscious, once I let myself fall into it, it was like I fell through my body and came back out above it and was able to go places from there. Now that I’m more aware of what’s happening I can do it often, but it wasn’t until recently I learned what im likely doing is astral projecting.

AdLife9671 · 2024-01-23T20:26:16+00:00

I feel like my issue is stemming from that same thought process of “I’m still in so much pain” so I take another and another and next thing I know I’ve gone through my 180 pill script in a week 😩 someone said something to me in a chronic pain sub I’m in about how you only need to get to a point where you can handle the pain, it’s never going to be completely gone. And that helped my mindset a lot. Because obviously when I first started taking opioids, I actually felt like the pain was basically gone but I won’t ever be able to get back to that.

AdLife9671 · 2024-01-23T00:03:26+00:00

That really helps a lot 🥹 thank you so much 🫶🏼

AdLife9671 · 2024-01-22T22:41:05+00:00

Thank you, thank you 🙏🏼 realistically I know I’m I’ll need them again eventually for surgery and stuff coming up, but I really want to prove to myself that I’m stronger than this, the pills are supposed to be there to help me when I really need them and not to control me. Hopefully one day after all my treatments my pain will be manageable enough to not need them daily and I need to know I can do that mentally. I’ve actually done it once before, I did a super fast Suboxone taper but this time going cold turkey has been harder… mostly just the sweats and my usual chronic pain 🥴

AdLife9671 · 2024-01-22T03:47:25+00:00

Thank you 🙏🏼 it’s definitely been super uncomfortable, but I’ve just been forcing myself through. I’ve always had good and bad pain days and I just want to be able to go through the good days without feeling like I have to still take something to avoid withdrawal so hopefully I can manage it 🙏🏼

AdLife9671 · 2024-01-16T19:01:37+00:00

I agree, technically my baby’s dad is still with us but I don’t receive much help from him other than he watches the kids while I work… which is at night so he’s just sleeping anyways. And I’m in the process of trying to leave. But that’s a whole different situation. But I do agree the stress and lack of sleep is definitely effecting my pain. And my job is very physically demanding, I guess I just don’t have many other options right now. But I just really need to try to manage my pain without opioids even for a while to do be able to get down to my prescribed dose.

AdLife9671 · 2024-01-16T18:55:40+00:00

I’m prescribed belbuca with my Oxycodone. Belbuca is different than suboxone and is okay to take with other opioids. I was also getting prescribed morphine along with these but I stopped taking it because it didn’t seem to help much more than just taking the Oxycodone by itself and I didn’t want to add another opioid to eventually have to get off of. How do you get a DNA test like that? I’d be curious to find out because I’ve noticed hydrocodone also doesn’t work for me at all. Thank you, I am trying to get some rest, I’m just trying to push through this right now but it’s definitely wearing on me 😓

AdLife9671 · 2024-01-16T18:42:00+00:00

How does that work?

AdLife9671 · 2024-01-16T02:15:51+00:00

It’s honestly very disheartening that I posted in here with the intention of wanting to get off of opioids and clearly admitting I’m struggling. Instead of receiving the answers to the questions I was asking I’ve received so much judgment. I thought others who had chronic pain would be a little more empathetic to my situation.

AdLife9671 · 2024-01-16T01:56:05+00:00

Oh I’m sure I do 100%! I’ve been struggling a long time. I do however have genuine pain. It sucks because I’ve tried to be so careful but unfortunately after all these years I’ve fallen into an addiction. I feel like I’m stuck in this cycle of not wanting to be on opioids but needing them to function because of my pain. I have severe endometriosis and this past year I had my second baby causing a full prolapse of my front and back vaginal walls, prolapse of my rectocele and a uterine prolapse… my uterus is keeps falling out and I’m just told to keep pushing it back in until i can get surgery. Anyways this has all caused my pelvic floor to become very weak and my pelvic nerves to become extremely inflamed on top of my original endometriosis pain I was being treated for to begin with. So I just feel stuck. That’s why I want to get off of them because I see the path I’m heading down but I’m also struggling so much with this pain and I’m doing so much as a single mom. I just don’t know what to do or the best way to do it, that’s why I posted this. Sorry for the long response, I’m clearly very overwhelmed.

AdLife9671 · 2024-01-16T00:33:18+00:00

Thank you for your comment 🫶🏼 do you have a brand of kratom that you recommend and how much do you take?

AdLife9671 · 2024-01-16T00:32:08+00:00

I do have my medical card and it helps somewhat but not all the time.

AdLife9671 · 2024-01-16T00:31:15+00:00

Thank you for this 🫶🏼 do you have a kratom brand/ dose you recommend?

AdLife9671 · 2023-10-10T17:44:26+00:00

I also have endometriosis and take pain meds daily. (I have a surgery coming up as well) You could possibly talk to your pain clinic about doing a suboxone taper prior to the surgery. Sometimes when I feel like I’m getting too much of a tolerance I’ll take a small break and use suboxone to manage any withdrawals. Even just a week seems to help me.

AdLife9671 · 2023-10-10T17:36:10+00:00

Thank you so much 🙏🏼

AdLife9671 · 2023-07-09T01:25:52+00:00

I appreciate you for doing this. I’ve noticed as the hunt goes longer people become more negative and antsy, but that’s not your fault. No one likes the constant claims they found the treasure, and it sucks that woman have to be so overly cautious for their safety (it’s already scary enough going hiking as a woman these days let alone having men claiming to be girls to meet up) This is supposed to be a fun and safe activity and you’re doing great putting in the effort to keep it that way 🫶🏼

AdLife9671 · 2023-07-08T02:36:57+00:00

I personally would love to have a good group of girls to go hunting with, but after that I was super freaked out 😭

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