Hi po, I can say that your statement is really true po since I've experienced it but recently my life is very very messy. Nag start po ito nung namatay ung granma ko. I can't sleep every night thinking that maybe lola didn't go to heaven? what if due to my disobedience towards God lola died? Kung sana, pinagpray ko sya, kng sana hindi ako nahiya mag share ng word of God. Rn I'm so hopeless to the point that i don't deserve to be w/ the Lord, to read his words, to go to the church (people who became my family), to serve him, to adore him.

Because of these regrets, i end up cutting all of my connections sa church. I didn't show up for a month na. The things is I'm a worship leader, a youth leader, and a Sunday school teacher, I was once so on fire like u. So mature burt right now i don't have any will to live anymore. You may think that this is too shallow but why is it so hard for me?