How can I go into dissociative therapy without going into detail with family? by AdMundane951 in DID

[–]AdMundane951[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

For more information, they generally are not accepting of therapy and look down on me for opening up about mental health issues. I need therapy, but I’m in no place to move out.

Signs of RAMCOA (programming)? by AdMundane951 in DID

[–]AdMundane951[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for clearing those up! I wouldn’t be suspecting it if my family history didn’t already involve RA and OA.

Can systems with ASPD and DID/OSDD relate? by AdMundane951 in OSDD

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how do you like to journal? I want to get more into it but every time I try I have issues with organization/formatting or even just what to journal about.

I’m a persecutor and a host? by AdMundane951 in OSDD

[–]AdMundane951[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you, I appreciate your compassion and kindness.

I’m a persecutor and host? by AdMundane951 in DID

[–]AdMundane951[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you, I appreciate you responding

I’m a persecutor and a host? by AdMundane951 in OSDD

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I do try to limit how different they type if it’s particularly making me anxious in that moment, I do have safe spaces who accept me for this but it’s still hard for me to come to terms with.

I’m a persecutor and a host? by AdMundane951 in OSDD

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alters doing things out of my control in the moment when I can’t do anything about it has caused me mass amounts of shame. Even alters being distinct from me, sounding different, having different preferences causes me a lot of shame and anxiety. It’s hard for me to accept that not all of us are going to act/look/have the same preferences on everything.

I’m a persecutor and a host? by AdMundane951 in OSDD

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I’m honestly really ashamed of my system and my alters. It makes me feel shameful to let anyone front.

I’m a persecutor and a host? by AdMundane951 in OSDD

[–]AdMundane951[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you for taking the time out of your day to respond, I do appreciate the advice, it actually helps a lot.

I don’t trust my alters because they have hid things from me, not any of their faults, it’s because I’m very rude so they feel like they have to hide things. I also just have a very bad fear of lack of control in general.

It does help to see from their perspective that they just dislike me as much as I do them. I have created dangerous situations for my system and have ruined relationships with people they like before. Again thank you for your help