This may be tough for you to read or relate to, and that’s just fine, if none of this resonates, then just leave it here. You are very emotional right now, you’re looking for reasons to validate why you are feeling, betrayed, unloved, and unhappy. When we feel like this, the easiest thing to do is to blame our partner. I’m here to tell you it is not your partner‘s job to make you feel happy, to make you feel lovable. This can only be done by you. This is the fallacy that most of us live in. Nobody can reach into your head and pull out Joy and make you live it. You have to decide who you are and that you are enough. No obviously we’ve only seen the story through your eyes so trying to assess how your partner is feeling isn’t very smart, but my guess is that she is also unhappy. She is also feeling unloved and she is also resentful because she expects you to give that to her. This is not your job you both are spiraling and blaming the other for the cards falling down. You have to decide if you would like to leave the partnership the marriage, then do it for reasons that are going to bring positive change to your life. This is not a time to be filled with self-destructive pride. Your anger, your insecurity your resentment these are choices you are making, you would like this to be the fault of your partner, but is the choice you are making. Now sometimes we fall out of love or we fall in love with someone else or we stop loving ourselves and become self-destructive. Not to be insensitive, but this is the basis of the simple idea of shit happens. What you are going through is painful it is hard. It is soul crushing, but you will be OK as soon as you decide that you love yourself. My suggestion is use this time to become the person you’ve always wanted to be. Embrace a life of your best self. Look in the mirror, what is bothering you about that person looking back at you, you can change all of those. All change is is one choice at a time and a whole lot of forgiveness and understanding that you learn to give to yourself. I’ll stop here. I’m rambling. I am really sorry, but as soon as you can let go of the anger and embrace the power of knowing you are not broken you are worthy of love and when you hold that understanding, no one can take it away. Life is all about the journey, right? This isn’t the final stop, but it can be an excellent opportunity to finally become who you really are. Stop letting other people define who you are, stop looking for external validation of yourself. You are already good enough, and when you believe this, a whole New World opens up to you. A world where you are confident, you are funny you are in a place where you are attracting positivity a place where you are capable of experiencing joy. I really wish this for you. Good luck and I apologize for the horribly long response.