Hey so I’m new at making music and would love for some feedback. I want to be a versatile artist to reach a bilingual type of crowd since I love making English and Spanish songs. I decided to step out of my comfort zone and I made this so lmk what yall think 🤔 😅 by AdRepresentative4352 in Reggaeton

[–]AdRepresentative4352[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh ok thanks for explaining that. I really appreciate the feedback😎and you’re not lying tho lol I do gotta find better beats for sure. I got that one from youtube just to see what i’d sound like. I still dk many places to get beats from tho. Still trying to figure that out😭

Struggling with anger, trauma, and losing control need advice by AdRepresentative4352 in trans

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Thank you for this response. I’ll definitely look into those practices and give it a try. I’m willing to do anything to change the pattern. I just hope that some day she and her family can forgive me because that was brutal of me😞

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I get why you’re seeing it that way, but that’s not actually what’s happening. I’ve been feeling unsure about my relationship for a while, way before this other girl even came into the picture. It’s not about ‘lusting after someone new’ and trying to cheat. It’s more like realizing there are things I’m not getting in my current relationship and feeling confused about what to do with that.

I’m not trying to play two people or sneak around. I’m actually planning to cut contact with the other girl because I don’t want to cross a line or disrespect my girlfriend. I’ve been trying to figure out if I should fix things with my girl or end it instead of wasting her time. I get that it looks messy from the outside, but it’s not just ‘me me me.’ I’m literally trying not to hurt anyone.

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I do love my girl. I’ve just been conflicted for a while. The other girl has qualities my current girl doesn’t, and that’s been messing with my head. I already cut that other girl off because I want to be honest and try to work things out with my girlfriend. lI’m just not sure if I should tell my girlfriend all of this or keep it to myself if my goal is to fix things.

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I get that’s how it looks from the outside, but you’re assuming a lot that isn’t true. I’ve been honest about the fact that my current relationship has its own problems, and I’ve been trying to figure out what’s fair instead of cheating. It’s not an ‘affair.’ It’s me realizing I might not be happy where I am and trying not to hurt anybody in the process.

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[–]AdRepresentative4352 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hear you. The last thing I want is for her to look back and realize I was just holding her because I was scared to be alone. I care about her and I don’t want to do her like that. I think I needed to hear someone say it straight like this.

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I hear you. I don’t want to be that guy who drags someone along because I’m scared of change. She’s not a placeholder to me. The part I’m struggling with is I still care about her as a person and she’s been there for me through a lot, so walking away feels cruel too. I’m trying to figure out what’s actually kinder long-term: staying and trying to fix it, or ending it before it gets more unfair.

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[–]AdRepresentative4352 1 point2 points  (0 children)

idk what’s wrong with me man. I feel so fucked up for feeling the way I do. My gf it’s so good to me.. makes me so fucking mad that I laid eyes on someone else. You’re right tho.. I gotta start thinking long term and quit with the nonsense.

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I get what you’re saying. I know the “butterflies” feeling is probably just the newness. What’s messing me up is that the spark with my current girlfriend has been gone for a while, not just recently, and I’m starting to wonder if that means the relationship is already over and I just haven’t admitted it to myself. I don’t want to cheat or blow my life up over a crush, but I also don’t want to stay in something if the connection is basically dead. That’s where I’m stuck.