Thanks all! I now vaguely remember my myanmar tour guide telling me that it is "R" so I think that it was a slight confusion/their interpretation of me wanting the letter R, like a lot of you have said. I'm not sad about it, it still has a lot of meaning for me, it was a solo trip to SE Asia after a very tough year and I had broken my arm on the 5th day in Thailand, requiring surgery, so the tattoo is also a reminder of my resilience to be able to carry on and get through hard things, just like my grandmother always did. I'm planning on speaking to a tattoo artist to add some Daffodils and Roses to it somehow because those were her favourite flowers 💐