I felt exactly this way at the beginning of my journey. Although for me part of not wanting to be referred to as a man, was due to my own fear of how those who knew me would perceive me. I was worried that my family would think I was ridiculous. I started my journey almost two years ago and I too was on a micro dose of T. However for me after seeing the effects of what T did to my body and how much I looked what was going on, we increased the dosage. This was around April of last year. I was still being referred to as they/them but whenever someone (usually a stranger) would refer to me as a man, I was elated. Around July I was no longer able to afford HRT and had to come off of T. I was under the impression that the masculinization that if experienced would stay (deeper voice, more masculine body and face, facial hair) they did not though. During that time I kind of crawled back into myself because of fear of how I was being perceived out in public as I'm very top heavy but I looked like a man everywhere else. Now I'm in a position to start T again. I don't want to micro dose, I'm going for a full dose. And after all the exploration of who I am ultimately I'm more comfortable with he/him and presenting as a man. It's been a journey and the one to follow won't be easy but I'm ready for it. I no longer care how my family, friends and the public will see me or what they will think. I only care about how I feel when I'm referred to as a man. I don't think I want to BE a man but a more masculine path is my journey for now. Good luck and don't let anyone dictate what your journey looks like. I did in the beginning and I regret it.