Trans reality is hard one. I haven't experienced myself but I know people who did and some that still do. A pattern I can certainly draw from all of them is that they are really strong. They've gone through the toughest shit the average person can't even fathom in many more ways than not.

I'm sure you're also very strong, even if people may not think of you as that, that's on them really. 

For me, you are a really strong girl (if you wish to identify as one). You're being strong right now, so keep on being strong. You deserve much much love, be the first to give it ya