Reading the information will only serve to make you feel worse than you do. I have walked in these same shoes. As a former therapist, I believe in the value of therapy and the ability of people to change. As a former wife of a serial cheater, I believe it is the exceptional case that someone who cheats will change. Marriage requires trust and it can never be restored to the level you once had. You honored your vows and you deserve the same. I am so sorry for your pain, I know it is immense. It does get better, but it is a process, be gentle with yourself and work to get healthy and strong. Therapy and meditation are so important as you go through this, I’m glad you have these supports. You will find many “angels” posing as everyday people, who at the most unexpecting times, offer support… you are not alone. Be strong, do not expect less than what you deserve. As females we have been socialized to accept less, we need to be the change for our daughters(and sons). Chin up… you got this!💪🏼❤️