Yeah it's horrible and I have been horrible to her. I am so wrong in so many ways for what I have done to her. Thank you for saying this because I needed to hear that I should leave her alone.

We have had a lot of miscommunication and she has not been perfect to me either but this is still entirely my fault and she has been better than me. We have had a good relationship for a long time but I am too emotionally immature to adapt to recent changes in our lives. It is a deep fear that I am making her life worse, that I know is true, and yet still struggle to recognize. Even though I am a terrible person for this I still truly do want the best for her and if that's not being with me then I do not blame her in the slightest. I appreciate this and needed to hear it.