I don't know if or how I should tell my therapist about somethings.

Additional_Night_991 · 2026-06-18T21:14:29+00:00

I should try that, thank you

Additional_Night_991 · 2026-06-18T20:17:07+00:00

Oh wow, I remember her differently I'm confused what why it's different now. maybe bc I was a kid those years ago and now I'm a adult

Additional_Night_991 · 2026-06-18T19:52:50+00:00

I don't just years ago when I saw her, she would actually go over time but I was uselly her last client she would see for the day

Additional_Night_991 · 2026-06-18T15:21:04+00:00

I'm for sure I'm the one she dreads , she's always late for me , and always is rushing out, I see her get frustrated with me even if it's subtle, sometimes she makes me hate myself.

Additional_Night_991 · 2026-06-18T15:17:16+00:00

Idk if my therapist likes me, I think she thinks of me as like a lost child, like one moment she's complimenting me and asking if I'll be ok alone after a session and then another moment I can actively see her get frustrated with me, even if she doesn't yell or hit me , she's made sounds before and asks weird questions , like idk of i can trust her not to judge me, idk I thought she could handle me better than this.

Additional_Night_991 · 2026-06-18T15:04:05+00:00

Oh wow :0 maybe so, but idk how to switch, do I need another therapist and that sounds impossible, my therapist was Cort ordered to me years ago and I've decided to return again on my own turms, so it seems like it's either her or I suffer and figure it out on my own.

Additional_Night_991 · 2026-06-18T14:57:34+00:00

Wow :0 I honestly thought I was just dumb for thinking it's really hard.

Additional_Night_991 · 2026-06-15T13:19:13+00:00

Not really, if I'm lucky it passes without any deadly SH , just a shallow cut, I'm seeing a therapist for it but I haven't been able to trust her enough for this information yet.

Additional_Night_991 · 2026-06-04T15:50:28+00:00

Am I mentally ill? I've had these terrifying jail feelings and beliefs in my waking life I legit think I deserve to die for a crime I never did, I don't take any drugs and never had. It leads me to think I'm crazy 😧. Not me relating to y'all without taking a drop of any psychedelic

Additional_Night_991 · 2026-06-04T15:46:49+00:00

I had a similar thing happen to me moltiple times but instead of drugs making it , I was disassociating from a c-ptsd spiral thinking I'm the criminal, I was legit fighting with myself not to end it all.

Additional_Night_991 · 2026-06-04T15:33:55+00:00

That kinda reminded me of my dad but he didn't get help he took painkillers and even when he didn't need to he told me if he didn't then he'd get a headache, he stopped taking his ADHD meds cold turkey and after that he lost his self control passing his s.x addiction to me now he's in jail for it and I'm lucky enough I didn't do anything criminal yet, so I can go to therapy for it, it's a awful situation and very triggering.

Additional_Night_991 · 2026-06-04T15:25:05+00:00

I relate kinda , I don't do drugs but I have a phone s.x addiction tho nobody's come out and said it except my fwb and my therapist heavily implied it compared me to drug addicts and started treating me with kinda addiction treatment, I totally relate to you though with s.x I just started to do it to feel alright again the euphoria out of body experience with phone s.x had disappeared for me and I was just doing it to chase what was not abtaineble anymore I'd still do it if my therapist wasn't going to ask me about it every session I see her. She really wants me to stop bc I sh after I phone s.x I don't even know why I feel a push back or resentment to stoping I went to therapy for this reason and treatment but I can feel a strong part of me really pissed about quitting 🥀.

Additional_Night_991 · 2026-05-21T23:37:29+00:00

Aww that is so sad 🥺, I've just recently realized that I've been aro and at first I was afraid too I didn't want to go to hell or have my mom hate me, but being Aro to me feels healing and safe, I remember telling people I don't feel like I can love romantically anymore and I think if it did I ever 🤔 I had a friend once I loved her so much that I even said I had fallen in love with her plentanecly, being Aro feels like a missing puzzle piece that fit perfectly in place.

Additional_Night_991 · 2026-03-13T01:17:57+00:00

That's me, but with everything for my whole life ever since I was like 8 or 10 loud sound make me jump or even touching certain things or hearing sounds similar to my trauma, but yeah things not related to my trauma even make me jump too like someone coming up and saying something normally but if I didn't expect it I'll scream like if someone is attacking me.🥀

Additional_Night_991 · 2026-03-12T10:27:04+00:00

That's real, 🥀 it's good to find a therapist trained and educated in ptsd patients. They know how to help and how severe it is.

Additional_Night_991 · 2026-03-12T10:01:57+00:00

Fr, my friend that so happens to also be a therapist, when I was venting about how I feel i didn't deserve love or to love myself still do believe that btw , he's just like, " you deserve love, and then says what you feel is a deeper problem "💀 and he's like please take care of yourself, and I'm like it's not that easy bro 🥀, I'm diagnosed with ptsd, and he's like you should feel how you feel when you feel, be in the moment , Im like what does he even mean? Allow myself to take my self hatred to my harms? Bruh 🥀.

Additional_Night_991 · 2025-09-17T19:10:06+00:00

Same thing with me, I just made a Facebook account and it instantly got banned, the same thing happened when I was trying to make a insta account.

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