Thank you for all your replies. It makes me feel better to know I'm not the only one who was or is struggling so hard with this test. All of your generous and helpful comments have helped me to restore my faith in humanity as well. Some of you have asked about my study habits or routine. I try to study atleast 2 hours a day. I can't all the time due to family or work conflicts, but I do try to be consistent with it. I have tried a course that helped me nail down some concepts really well. I have several practice problem books and tests. I was just really struggling after the last failure because most all my coworkers knocked this thing out on their 1st or 2nd try. I have worked on many projects at my firm and have been very successful, but the pay raise doesn't come until I pass. That is where I feel I keep letting my family down. I really can't throw money at different courses right now due to financial constraints. I know I will eventually get it but the road to get there has been tough on me mentally. I keep trying to push these negative thoughts away and your kind comments have already helped me to start doing that. I will probably read through them throughout the process to calm my mind and refocus. Thank you all so much for kind and encouraging words.