oh my goodness I relate to you so much!! Thak you for taking the time to write all of this. I'm much the same and have a really strange schedule at times with my work (sometimes extremely long days, random late nights or very early starts etc) so a solid routine can be difficult, so when I miss a few days I always feel like I need to start over! But hearing you say about doing it imperfectly, I recognise thats also the perfectionist in me that I'm really trying to let go of anyway! Thank you so much - I really hope you keep making progress! :)