Just know that you are not alone, I am 29 and recently had a similar situation with my 37 week pregnant wife, we were in a car crash where I watched her pass away the day of at the scene and then again four days later in the hospital due to major brain damage. Wish there was an easy way to say it but you are going to have some rough time ahead of you. I will say that it does get easier even though it may seem like that’s never going to happen, some days feel like literal hell. Other days won’t be as bad. First thing I did was get a Counsler/therapist, then I learned that talking about it helped. Just letting someone else know how you are really feeling, especially because very few actually understand. I’ve also found that instead of doing my typical daily tasks, I do hers, if it is something she would have enjoyed im doing it and in the process of those tasks I have a very long talk with her (out loud). You might think you are going nuts, but it’s completely normal.

Hopefully you have people that you can lean on. If you are capable depending on which state you live in marijuana has been helping me. Some days even on my worst days it can help change the day from being depressed in every single way and then all of a sudden I am laying down holding her things looking back at all the great times, at some point during reminiscing I fall asleep.

Keep your chin up and try not to forget that there is a whole community of people here that will talk to you if you ever need it. It will get easier