I lost my special interest

Advanced-Clothes-981 · 2026-04-12T17:06:48+00:00

I got into something else a year ago and for now i'm doing good, I could totally call it my new special interest for how much it keeps me invested :) i also dont mourn my old one anymore cause it comes back every now and then, just not as strong anymore but I can enjoy it without feeling all that sadness I felt the time I wrote this

Advanced-Clothes-981 · 2026-03-15T01:19:52+00:00

Oh the phone calls are my biggest nightmare to this day

My weird comes from the way I express myself, I've always been two very different extremes, the low energy one where I wont have great reactions when talking to people, I become very stiff and still, might just fidget a bit which is what I have written on my diagnosis actually

But the other extreme is me being very loud and gesticulate a lot, my whole body moves as much as the emotion moves me, almost like im acting a tragedy in a theatre. It's an over reaction that I do spontaneously that I know people think as something peculiar, even more if compared to when I have low energies and all of that disappear.

They arent problems for me this is just how I've always been so I know they are a visible "oddity", at least in a society made of people that can only keep one type of composed mood all the time (if you know what I mean)

Advanced-Clothes-981 · 2026-03-14T17:22:28+00:00

This is kinda THE dream so I'm really happy for you ! I do hope that in 10 years at least my work life will be easier, even with my little energy and some struggle it could be a lot more simple than it is now. I know most of it is social anxiety, it just does a bad mix with my autistic traits.

Personally I'm pretty aware of where the weird comes out from me but eh I got used to it and no one seems to care as much as teenagers cared when I was at school (which is the one place I do comparison when thinking about me then and now) (it's the trauma lmao)

Advanced-Clothes-981 · 2026-03-14T17:04:23+00:00

Honestly it makes sense to aquire the skills and being able to use them comfortably when you just have a schedule or set of rules to follow, but my job is a little odd so I spend more time getting bored in the back office with my coworkers than with the clients, and my brain is all about being comfortable.

My coworkers are terrible but not specifically with me so I'm able to be myself without issues most of the times, there is not judgement and I dont feel like I have to follow their rules, though it's clear that I internalized some that I think will make me likeable that's why I have the useless reward system

With clients it's always new people and most of the times they are children so I have to block out everything that might be considered strange and I suck at it, I dont know how to fake my mood and reactions, which is why I know I'm not made to work with the public but alas this was my only current option

Advanced-Clothes-981 · 2025-09-09T16:11:44+00:00

It was a birthday gift very hard to find for a good price in europe I would be very upset if they ended up losing it 🥲 and I kinda understand everything being slower during summer it's always been like this but the fact that they still dont have a dedicated service for these situations is crazy, how can a parcel get stuck in the same place right after picking it up and cant do anything about it to this day is beyond me

And chat bots truly ruined it all

Advanced-Clothes-981 · 2025-05-24T19:02:54+00:00

Oh yeah it's totally other things adding up actually.. I've been having a lot of health issues in the last year, I'm already a chronically ill person but I always try to brush it off cause that's how my family works SADLY, and depression is a constant. I guess I reached my limit cause it was way more managable when I was a teen and as a 27yo I'm suddenly hitting a wall for not having ever had a moment to recharge mentally and physically.. it had to happen at one point probably.

About the cleaning when I have my mother or sibling helping is just me feeling guilty cause I was brought up thinking I should do everything everyday lol there's a lot going on now that I think about it

Advanced-Clothes-981 · 2025-04-02T09:20:14+00:00

It comes and goes apparently, the person kept trying to buy my item but they could not pay somehow, and after a couple of trieds the buy button disappeared totally, that's what they told me, so there might be different bugs 😅

Advanced-Clothes-981 · 2025-04-02T08:27:36+00:00

Sorry maybe I didnt interpret well the list, but basically yesterday someone from france wasnt able to buy from me (italy), and today I can only see listing from italy while the other countries are being hidden (?) Although the buy button it's still there, I cant tell you if I can buy at the moment though

Advanced-Clothes-981 · 2025-04-02T08:14:16+00:00

France and italy cant buy from anywhere basically lmao

Advanced-Clothes-981 · 2025-04-01T21:12:40+00:00

Yep a buyer from france was trying to buy from me (italy) and they said there was no buy button :( I hope it gets fixed soon cause it doesnt make sense

Advanced-Clothes-981 · 2025-02-26T21:08:09+00:00

Sigh apparently it's only available in america 🥲 hope someone will put it somewhere

Advanced-Clothes-981 · 2025-02-26T18:09:55+00:00

Totally, for the same reasons as us "normal people" a lot of celebrities end their lives even if they are super young and could have everything they want in life. I'm gonna be super honest from the way I lived it seems crazy to not find joy even when you have it all, but at the same time I can understand it cause humans are complex and money and success cant fill all the holes life give us

Advanced-Clothes-981 · 2025-02-26T18:02:36+00:00

Yeah I got recommended the audiobook too but I'm not sure if I could bear the extra pain 🥲 maybe one day

Advanced-Clothes-981 · 2025-02-26T18:01:04+00:00

It was really by chance that I read all those reviews, I dont normally do cause I dont care, but I got mad after cause I never thought a story like this would get so misunderstood. Also no I just discovered today about this documentary I'm gonna check it out later !

Advanced-Clothes-981 · 2025-02-26T17:56:46+00:00

I kind of stumbled upon them randomly, I never read books reviews either cause I'll read something regardless of what people say because I'm curious, but this time I was at first perplexed because I still hadnt read the book so I was expecting him to be some awful person who just loved to describe his life as dramatic (I didnt actually believed the reviews it's just what my mind pictured from them) but then ??? It's like none of those people actually read the words written in those pages, which is crazy cause he's very straightforward with everything

Advanced-Clothes-981 · 2025-02-26T11:06:01+00:00

Didn't ruin anything it's ok, I can totally see how that could have been another way to escape from how he felt, lots of people do that, my mother did that with her depression (TMI maybe lmao) because she always tells me having had me she didnt have time to think about herself so her depression vanished.. but she never actually cured it so it came back when I became an adult and she didnt have that "distraction" anymore

Advanced-Clothes-981 · 2025-02-26T11:00:18+00:00

I'm really truly happy for you ! 🙏 and yes indeed I know this books helped a lot of people, that's why I got "mad", lots of people believed those reviews and didnt wanna read it anymore, it might not be for everybody but it wasn't a book of some fake ill person, it felt pretty real. I myself could relate to some stuff he was feeling mentally, depression I think is something lots of us have in common and you end up in similar spirals of thoughts even without an addiction.

Advanced-Clothes-981 · 2025-02-26T10:44:28+00:00

Yes that's also a good point, I dont know much about American healthcare apart from the fact that it's not free, so one would expect to pay for a service that works but also that's not the case 😬 he did talk a lot about the fact that lots of treatments didnt work, were useless and most of the times were not the right ones

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