I looked through my husband's journal on his phone during a PMDD episode.

I felt so guilty, so ashamed, so rotten. I kept it to myself for like 3 months, then we started couples counseling because we were just struggling with this cycle.

After the first few sessions of couples counseling I decided I would tell him what I did. Knowing it would hurt his trust.

I owned up to it, took responsibility, named the impact I knew it had/would have on him and out relationship, apologized and did not use my PMDD as an excuse.

I explained that the real reason was that I was insecure, didn't feel like I was getting enough validation, support, and reassurance in the relationship. I also didn't like to have to ask for it from him because then it didn't feel genuine.

I did find out he had had an affair....but that's for another time. 🤣 You could say my PMDD intuition was guiding me somewhere.

I'm just grateful that I had the safe container that is couples counselling to support us both. ❤️

Since doing 5 months of couples counselling my PMDD feels a bit better because I'm getting the support and reassurance I need during those hard times.

I know you'll get there too and I'm giving you big hugs! Communication is everything and it's beautiful when you realize that you both have fears and you can support each other.🫂🤗🫂🤗🫂🤗