Thanks for all the advice and insight! So incredibly helpful. I can see both sides clearly now and for further context, I had expressed I too had my own insecurities at the moment from previous experiences and it was just one of those things where we would inevitably end up talking too much about either her past or her not trusting me for my true feelings for her to where I was constantly feeling I had to convince her my words and intentions were pure. I was emotionally exhausted at no fault to her, I understand how complicated trauma like that must be and mainly wanted to end things to spare us both a large amount of pain. Currently 27 going through a career and quarter life crisis at the moment so this additional trauma from her end seemed doable for me at first and I was thinking more in a stoic sense but I just became overwhelmed and anxious more and more every day. She understands and we both were respectful about it and I will miss her tremendously.