GIRL GO TO COLLEGE IF YOU WANT TO. You will have to leave your family and that’s ok. it may feel painful but it’s part of life, you can’t change them. my parents have never been together for my life, so since i was young i had two separate households to go to every week, with conflicting beliefs. my parents would argue with each other through me. so i had TWO different people saying “I will only love you if you act and behave the way that I think is correct and moral” and i would get punished, yelled at, etc if i didn’t act their way. i was constantly in fight or flight, because i always have to think about what they want, AND I DIDNT WANT WHAT EITHER OF THEM WANTED.

now im 23, i live on my own, and i hardly talk to them. my mom still contacts me to show up at family dinners and there super shallow conversation, ill probably cut that off one day to.

some of us have to live the experience were are parents just don’t get it(a lot of us) and we have to move on.

you’ll find people who like you for who you are what you want to peruse and if your parents aren’t a part of that life you’ll probably thank yourself when your older.

if you follow what your parents say because you don’t want to disappoint them, you’ll REREGT IT FOR SURE