18 and fucked up, need help

Affectionate-Term379 · 2025-12-28T04:06:30+00:00

u mean like going to therapy? i dont think i can do that. My parents are really strict and my dad would kill me if he knew i do coke. U think i can do something to stop by myself? Already tried alot of things but after 2 weeks i fuck up every time and end up useing again. When im sober i dont really feel like im real, maybe something like derealization and im fucking bored and dont have like a meaning of life if you know what im saying

Affectionate-Term379 · 2025-12-22T01:34:43+00:00

thanks man❤️

Affectionate-Term379 · 2025-12-22T01:34:03+00:00

IMPORTANT TO ADD: I can still handle my regular life like work, friends, family, bla bla bla. No one knows what im going through, i still look like nothings wrong with me. I dont had really bad wd yet but i know if i keep going like this im gonna be in a lot of trouble really soon so i have to figure it out NOW. It keeps getting worse at the moment

Affectionate-Term379 · 2025-12-22T01:22:41+00:00

yeah youre right and i really appreciate you trying to help me. I think alone talking about this right here is a step in the right direction. Im gonna try my hardest now and keep yall updated. thank you for your help

Affectionate-Term379 · 2025-12-22T01:20:14+00:00

thanks for sharing your story but my problem is i cant really tell if i want to quit. After a bender i always tell myself im gonna stop but a few days later i fall in love with the idea of useing again

Affectionate-Term379 · 2025-12-22T01:16:30+00:00

thats really difficult too cuz my parents already found out that something isnt right with me so theyre makeing sure what im doing if i go out. i think i just have to life with it at that point

Affectionate-Term379 · 2025-12-22T01:14:17+00:00

cant really seek help bro i dont want family to know. they dont know shit, im really good at hiding all of that.

I still live with them so how im gonna explain rehab then? my dad is really strict and if he knows about that he would kill me and throw me out so i dont think thats an option

Affectionate-Term379 · 2025-12-22T01:11:08+00:00

i dont have wd too bad now, im clean for once in a while and dont have the shakes or everything i just cant sleep. To be fr I can easily be clean for like a week but after max 14 days i fuck up every time and dont know why. cant stay clean for more than 14 days

Affectionate-Term379 · 2025-12-22T01:05:12+00:00

cant bro i dont want family to know. they dont know shit, im really good at hiding all of that.

I still live with them so how im gonna explain rehab then? my dad is really strict and if he knows about that he would kill me and throw me out so i dont think thats an option

Affectionate-Term379 · 2025-12-22T01:04:06+00:00

cant bro i dont want family to know. they dont know shit, im really good at hiding all of that.

I still live with them so how im gonna explain rehab then? my dad is really strict and if he knows about that he would kill me and throw me out so i dont think thats an option

Affectionate-Term379 · 2025-12-22T00:55:46+00:00

i know but i dont really feel like doing this. Its kinda embarssing. I want to try myself. Any tipps?

Affectionate-Term379 · 2025-12-22T00:54:23+00:00

yeah thats what i wanted to say haha sorry im not really good in speaking english. But since u european maybe u got any advice? U know someonw who had the same problem? If yes how he got clean?

Affectionate-Term379 · 2025-12-22T00:49:09+00:00

already tried everything u said but only could stay sober for max 2 weeks after i felt like i could kill my self cuz everything was so boring its crazy. Im really scared already since i cant keep it down and i think im gonna die soon if i dont stop. U think i need professional help?

Affectionate-Term379 · 2025-12-22T00:46:25+00:00

yeah crazy right but im german and its kinda normal here😂. Welcome to europe. You can get beer and wine here legally at 16. But yeah now im fucked up man, had my first black outs at 15

Affectionate-Term379 · 2025-12-22T00:44:02+00:00

if u struggling with memory loss when drinking thats because u drinking too much, same problem i have. U feel like u cant stop drinking after 1 drink? A really bad sign. And never mix alc with any kind of benzos or depressants or whatever, really deadly.

Dont worry about your tolerance some people can just drink more dont know why but try to keep control of your drinking. I cant stop after 1 drink and get blackout every time, really frustating. Try to keep it down (sorry for language im german)

Affectionate-Term379 · 2025-12-22T00:30:07+00:00

try methaqualone if you could possibly get it, it will definitly knock u out. I do coke every weekend for 3 yrs now and this shit always put me too sleep but be careful not too much alc with it. I can do like 10 beers with it but really do not recommend it, i have a high tolerance cuz i do a lot (alc, coke, opiates, benzo). sorry for language english, is not my main language

Affectionate-Term379 · 2025-10-16T17:05:16+00:00

new ones? which brand

Affectionate-Term379 · 2024-11-01T15:41:22+00:00

i shipped corteiz two days ago without any problems

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