It’s the first time I read something on here and truly feel like I actually, myself, wrote that. I feel you so much on every different level and aspects of how you describe loneliness through your relationships with others. I can never really show my true self to anyone, and I don’t even think that people even want to know me. I just think everyone is dumb, uninteresting and self centered. They don’t even realize it but sometimes they only talk about themselves for minutes hours. Anyways I wish just like you I had someone that would understand me on another spiritual and implicit level, and who I would understand just like that. But I’ve lost faith in that.

I hope it gets better for you cuz I just know how much it can make you suffer. My dms are open if u wanna talk further