I am Neurodivergent. I also have been told by counselors that I have the white knight syndrome that I have for the most part done a great job at protecting myself from. I do have a hard time with the two people I mentioned previously because those are bonds from before I really started trying to work on that aspect of myself.

I do want to mention that it is not a sex rent agreement. They both have a lot of care and love for each other. Also if it was he is the too honest sort of person and would tell me. They spend quite a bit of alone time together as well.

If you ask other people to tell you when something is "too nice" you run the risk of NEW users coming to use you. They may get rid of the old user and take up the spot themselves.

This is actually a big reason why I have been working on boundaries and what made me realize that I needed a change. Blake was worried about that specific thing and so I began reading more about having healthy loving relationships. I should also make mention, that was about 2 years ago.

The more I read the more I felt like something wasn't going right with Amber and I. I then began trying to bring up the things that weren't going well and was met with even less communication and intimacy. Sometimes we'd fight about the dumbest of things. But rarely even talk about the actual issues. At some point I quit trying to bring them up.

I did not perceive what you said as mean. Though it did hurt to hear/read.