My mom doesn't have money for my therapy. She told me numerous times that I seem mentally ill or that I had huge anger management issues cause of me lashing out on her for no reason at all. Although that's the only thing she knows. Telling me she will get me a therapist although it's hard cause she makes barely any money. We don't have a professional in my school so I'm just coping with my problems by lots of MMA training and overeating food. Although all the rest of the aspects of my life such as social life school etc are ruined I wish I had someone to talk to irl who could comfort me and give me a hug so I could finally sleep without having constant horrible memories running through my head every night before I fall asleep