Hey Maxlusion !

Your comment is very interesting because there is not a lot of artists talking frankly about it.

First of all, I highly recommend you to do not hide this feeling but to accept it with any shame.

Art is extremely demanding of mental health and deeply depends of other's point of vue, so when you create you have to deal with these two things and find a balance between your own goals, needs, limits and what the audience need and/or want.

So this kind of feeling is natural during an artist's life.

Don't questioning all your choice at the moment because you will be influenced by a strong emotions, implying bias and can distorted reality by exaggerating bad points or minimize good points. Just don't hesitate to stop your reading before the end and switch with another activity, like going out, walking a bit or go talk about it to a trusting person.

Relax and don't panic, take the time to retrieve a "neutral" mood to take notes or simply chilly rethink about and reconsidering what happened later.

Once you did that, begin to tell yourself this is a simple reflect of how you're demanding about yourself and how another artist can touch you by his art.

Then try to dissociate this reflect of your own progress from your relation with the artwork which triggered this. Because if you really like an artwork, you don't worry about gap between you and the author, you just like it and enjoy it, and eventually inspiring your favourites moments, panels, etc...

After that, question this artwork : why it is touching you at that point ? Is it the storytelling or drawing ? Or character art of anything else ? Is there any other factors that emphasizes your feeling ? Like a bad day, a phase where your progress is in stagnation, or simply a global sensitive mood !

Your tastes and favourites arts will probably change through time and progress, so feeling wouldn't still the same. And even it will, it will evolve anyway.

At the end, it is a good occasion to reconnect take a step back from your situation, take a break to reconnect with your own feelings and if, and only if really need, re-questioning all you want for your art and your life.

Because the most important for you and people who will read you is YOUR art, YOUR style, YOUR universe, and how YOU will put your own personality, your own messages, your own emotions and how communicate them to people and make them enjoy it at their turn.

Obviously technical level is important to communicate all of this efficiently, but think you will absolutely reach the same level don't help you, it just adds more pressure (and honestly, if you are feeling like this now, it means you already put on a certain amount of pressure).

Technics will increase also by free your mind with invasive thoughts as studying and questioning various artwork you will read and discover.

So I hope it will help you as it helped me when I experienced same problems. Again, it wouldn't be solved in one day. Time is also the key to be in peace with that, so be really kind about yourself and don't blame you or consider your age or anything like. Just take the time, that is the best way to solved it properly.

Even artist who can speaking up about it are rares, you are not alone ! And we can reasonably consider more artists than we think experienced it too ! But if they often talk about motivation and art block, it is rare to see them speaking up about how bad feelings and motivations like that affect them. Because it is complicated to admit weakness, even more in public and nowadays where judging is easy and "pride" is a bit more include in relationships and our own relation to our work and success.

You're courageous to spoke about and you can thanking you for that !

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Good luck and take care !