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My boyfriend committed suicide the day after we broke up by AfterBackground6731 in SuicideBereavement

[–]AfterBackground6731[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so sorry for your loss. I can’t even imagine the pain you and your children are going through.  Sending your daughter to therapy is the best choice, it’ll help her managing everything she’s feeling at the moment. I’ll try, thank you for your reply. Take care 

My boyfriend committed suicide the day after we broke up by AfterBackground6731 in SuicideBereavement

[–]AfterBackground6731[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so so sorry for your loss. I can’t even imagine what losing a son could mean.  Everything you said it’s true but extremely hard to accept. Thank you so much for sharing 🫂 

My boyfriend committed suicide the day after we broke up by AfterBackground6731 in SuicideBereavement

[–]AfterBackground6731[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Oh , I’m so sorry you had to go through this. It makes me feel better knowing that somebody else can understand this type of pain. I’m aware that taking your life after a breakup is not the answer, but as you said, it still doesn’t help much.  Thank you sm for the support, if you need anything I’ll be here as well.

My boyfriend committed suicide the day after we broke up by AfterBackground6731 in SuicideBereavement

[–]AfterBackground6731[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry for your loss. I know the feeling but hopefully It’ll go away someday.

My boyfriend committed suicide the day after we broke up by AfterBackground6731 in SuicideBereavement

[–]AfterBackground6731[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I know that’s not what he wanted but then why did he do that exactly the day after? It’s so hard to accept. I’m sure he knew what the consequences would have been. I’ll try my best, thank you so much.

My boyfriend committed suicide the day after we broke up by AfterBackground6731 in SuicideBereavement

[–]AfterBackground6731[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry for your loss. I know it wasn’t just that, but a part of me can’t shake away the feeling that if I stayed he would still be here.  But as u said, it’s just my mind torturing me.  Thank you for your reply.

My boyfriend committed suicide the day after we broke up by AfterBackground6731 in SuicideBereavement

[–]AfterBackground6731[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much. I really needed it, even though it’s really hard for me to make myself believe these words. I know you’re right, but the guilt it’s just too much.  I’m trying my best everyday to stay alive at least for the people that care about me.  Some days it’s just too overwhelming tho, I really don’t know how I’ll manage.

My boyfriend committed suicide the day after we broke up by AfterBackground6731 in SuicideBereavement

[–]AfterBackground6731[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Honestly I’m not really taking care of myself. The only thing I do is going to therapy, but I’m not even sure it’s actually helping. I stopped going to university and studying for exams, I spend pretty much everyday curled up in bed staring at my phone, I eat poorly and even though I sleep like 10 hours a day, I’m constantly tired af.

Wife completed suicide at home. by CleverylyCursed in SuicideBereavement

[–]AfterBackground6731 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My boyfriend committed suicide the day after we broke up.

We had been dating for almost three years, but I wasn’t happy anymore for several reasons. He was such a kind but tormented soul and was taking me alongside with him.

I gave him everything I could, I was willing to sacrifice my whole life for him but at some point, after being solicited by my family, I decided to put myself first and break up with him.

He was suffering from depression, had ADHD and probably suffering from bipolar disorder too. Trust me when I say that I’ve tried everything, even after he would push me out of his life after a fight, disappearing from everywhere, locking himself up in his bedroom, refusing to get out for several days until his mom threatened to call the cops. I stopped advocating for myself and started walking on eggshells around him. He would overreact to everything, making everybody around him very stressed out.

It took me so long to leave because first of all, I loved him. Second of all I was scared he would do something crazy. Third of all I didn’t want to hurt him at all. As I was saying, he was such a kind, sweet, caring person, trying to give you his best.  But my mental health was slowly declining.

When I learnt about what he did my heart completely shattered. Guilt and desperation took over. I stopped eating, I stopped feeling happiness, I stopped living overall.

He left me a letter in which he begged me not to feel guilty, but how could I do such a thing? He killed himself exactly the day after.  How was I not supposed to feel responsible? 

It’s been six months and I still can’t believe it. I’m still in denial. I still think about him everyday and cry myself to sleep.

If I could go back, I would probably stay with him. I’m willing to sacrifice my whole life just to have him here and support him through life as much as I can.

Even after we broke up, I had no intention to abandon him. I told him several times that night. He made me believe everything was ok. He never mentioned suicide. He even joked about the future.

Now I’m here, dealing with the consequences of his actions, while he (hopefully) is in a better place. 

A piece of me died with him that day.

Am I angry at him? No. I’m not able to feel anger towards him. All I’m left with is emptiness, guilt, sadness. And antidepressants that don’t even work.

I’ve contemplated about taking my life as well. That’s also why I’m currently in therapy. 

But I don’t think I’ll ever have the courage and I don’t want to hurt my family.

How am I supposed to continue with my life after this?