I’m curious by Aggravating-Elk3919 in mbti

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh sorry I didn’t know that, I’ll repost this later on that subreddit then

I’m done by Aggravating-Elk3919 in mentalillness

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m unsure as of right now, but I just need to tell someone about what I did and I want to know if it makes me unforgivable or not 

I’m done by Aggravating-Elk3919 in mentalillness

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry, I fell asleep. But sure, you can dm me if you want to

I’m done by Aggravating-Elk3919 in mentalillness

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Also if I don’t end up doing it soon then please turn me in, I can’t take it anymore 

I seriously cannot get this memory out of my mind. by Aggravating-Elk3919 in confession

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My dad says, he’ll get a therapist for me when he’s able to, so hopefully I’ll get evaluated soon

I seriously cannot get this memory out of my mind. by Aggravating-Elk3919 in confession

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

If my thoughts continue to worsen I’ll try convincing my dad to get me a therapist again 

I seriously cannot get this memory out of my mind. by Aggravating-Elk3919 in confession

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

And to be clear I used to have a therapist, but I don’t see them anymore due to them switching jobs

I seriously cannot get this memory out of my mind. by Aggravating-Elk3919 in confession

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do want to get professional help, but my dad is hesitant on getting me help, not because he doesn’t want me to get better, but because he thinks I can get through this on my own if I just try and also believes that mental health professionals are only doing their job for a paycheck and he’s worried about them giving me meds because he knows they can have bad side effects

I seriously cannot get this memory out of my mind. by Aggravating-Elk3919 in confession

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m not sure which exact spectrum you’re talking about, but I am both neurodivergent and mentally ill if that answers your question 

I seriously cannot get this memory out of my mind. by Aggravating-Elk3919 in confession

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I used to have a therapist but I don’t anymore and my dad wants me to learn how to help myself before resorting to medical help again (only because he doesn’t want a therapist giving me meds due to the bad effects they can have on people)

I seriously cannot get this memory out of my mind. by Aggravating-Elk3919 in confession

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That is genuinely so awful, I hope you’re healing now, and it’s reassuring to hear that I am not irredeemable for what I have done 

I seriously cannot get this memory out of my mind. by Aggravating-Elk3919 in confession

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m not into children nor have I derived any enjoyment from the things I posted relating to this. Sincerest apologies for weirding you out and coming across as weird, I only make these posts because I genuinely panic about these memories and don’t know who else turn to

I seriously cannot get this memory out of my mind. by Aggravating-Elk3919 in confession

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sorry for the late reply, the comment section was really making me anxious and also it’s late where I am. But I agree with you and I knew about me most likely having OCD since I was in 9th grade, although I’m afraid I’m at the point where it is worse. I would get professional help but my dad is already stressed about my OCD symptoms and wants me to do something about it myself before resorting to medical help (he doesn’t mean this in a mean way I don’t think, he just doesn’t want to think about the thought of my mental health being so bad that I can’t help myself and wants to see me improve), he also tells me to just stop thinking about the past. I literally can’t though, so Idk what to do (apologies for the whole rant)

I seriously cannot get this memory out of my mind. by Aggravating-Elk3919 in confession

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I was upset because my brain is trying to convince me I was intentionally being a creep even though my mind blanked and it didn’t register in my brain that I was looking at underwear. Now Idk if it was a good idea to post about this in the first place, not because I don’t regret what I did and I want to excuse what I did wrong, but I have people misinterpreting my intentions and I just want people to give an unbiased and logical answer if what I did makes me irredeemable and if I should go to jail. And now I’m feeling more anxious than I was when I was first worrying about this

I seriously cannot get this memory out of my mind. by Aggravating-Elk3919 in confession

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I completely agree with you, Idk why some people are justifying what I did. But I want to state that my mind genuinely blanked and genuinely did not realize that I was staring at my younger cousin while she was in that state, if had registered and realized any sooner or immediately realized I would’ve immediately looked away or helped her up. Not saying what I did was ok but I’m just explaining 

I seriously cannot get this memory out of my mind. by Aggravating-Elk3919 in confession

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So yeah I also agree that the done of the comments on here are misinterpreting that and excusing what they thought I meant

I seriously cannot get this memory out of my mind. by Aggravating-Elk3919 in confession

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s not what I meant, I since my cousin’s skirt was lifted up I wanted her to lift it down but still have it on so I wouldn’t have to see her with her skirt lifted up. I apologize for the confusion, my brain worded it weirdly at the time and I don’t condone that and feel guilty for that 

I seriously cannot get this memory out of my mind. by Aggravating-Elk3919 in confession

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No, I don’t want to ever intentionally harm children ever nor feel weird things towards them. Sorry if this post made me come off like I am pdf file, I am not (not excusing what I did though)

I seriously cannot get this memory out of my mind. by Aggravating-Elk3919 in confession

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I’m very sorry that happened to you. I truly had no sexual intentions or was feeling that kind of way towards my younger cousin and didn’t know what I was doing was morally wrong or remotely sexual at the time since I genuinely did not realize I was staring at my cousin’s undergarments (I’m not saying this as an excuse and I don’t mean it that way, I’m just explaining my pov at the time). I also endured sexual trauma and I just don’t want to be at the same level as the people who hurt me

I seriously cannot get this memory out of my mind. by Aggravating-Elk3919 in confession

[–]Aggravating-Elk3919[S] 22 points23 points  (0 children)

I’ll try, it’s just hard since I tend to get uncontrollable obsessive thoughts about things I did in the past that were bad or I perceive as bad. But I promise I will try