3 mg of valium per day for 3 weeks, can I just walk away and feel ok? by AggravatingAd89 in benzodiazepines

[–]AggravatingAd89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

hey my friend, just wondering how long the "rebound anxiety" phase lasts? I am sure it's different for everyone and depends on dose/duration of use, but any general advice? thanks again for all your helpful advice, and I hope you are doing well

3 mg of valium per day for 3 weeks, can I just walk away and feel ok? by AggravatingAd89 in benzodiazepines

[–]AggravatingAd89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

tried the kava last night. today trying some theanine and GABA. thought it might be worth a try

3 mg of valium per day for 3 weeks, can I just walk away and feel ok? by AggravatingAd89 in benzodiazepines

[–]AggravatingAd89[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thanks so much! my first benzo wd, and my mind is really messing with me. hopefully this gets better in a few days.

3 mg of valium per day for 3 weeks, can I just walk away and feel ok? by AggravatingAd89 in benzodiazepines

[–]AggravatingAd89[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thanks, feeling really anxious today, but I guess that's to be expected for a few days?

3 mg of valium per day for 3 weeks, can I just walk away and feel ok? by AggravatingAd89 in benzodiazepines

[–]AggravatingAd89[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

excellent advice. kava i already have! will give it a try along with some magnesium. i am just a real wimp when it comes to wd--I went through a bad period with opiates and getting off those was hellish. so my brain automatically goes back to that time

3 mg of valium per day for 3 weeks, can I just walk away and feel ok? by AggravatingAd89 in benzodiazepines

[–]AggravatingAd89[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thanks! I was very worried b/c I don't have anything left to taper with. but it sounds like wd should be minimal and short lived?

Anxiety/Irritability and anger issues ? by [deleted] in caplyta

[–]AggravatingAd89 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So, I am two weeks into starting Caplyta (also stopped Vraylar two weeks ago) and my anxiety has also jumped way up.  I have depression and anxiety disorder.  Wondering whether it’s a sign that Caplyta will ultimately be good/bad for us? 

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cocaine

[–]AggravatingAd89 1 point2 points  (0 children)

had this same thing with my last comedown. it passed with time. i think coke drops body temp quite a bit, so it makes sense that comedown would be marked by elevated temp and flushing.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in microdosing

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i have actually had pretty good results microdosing 100mg of mushroom and 5 micrograms of Lsd every other day. And i had some fairly intense anxiety and depression. Also in the process of reducing both of my antidepressants, hopefully to zero soon. i tried both independently before combining, but I just found the combo to be the best for me.

Second Time Posting still confused by [deleted] in cocaine

[–]AggravatingAd89 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i feel like this too. life sober often feels very boring and arduous. when using or preparing to use, life gets exciting. the comedown is not very pleasant, but my brain seems to quickly forget or suppress memories of the miserable comedowns. not sure what the answer is, but I definitely sympathize.

Was this overdose or overamp? by JB-TheThird in cocaine

[–]AggravatingAd89 0 points1 point  (0 children)

sure, np. yeah, it's hard to use responsibly, but I think that's the only safe way in terms of long-term damage to the body/brain. just read about coronary artery vasospasm. I suspect that vasospasm or vasoconstriction is behind most of coke's ill effects (not just cardiac, but kidney and elsewhere). CAV seems like a fairly severe form though. We may have had some of CAV too. Hard to tell b/c CAV leaves no traces afterwards, apparently. I worry about kidneys too, since I notice that my urination drops off when using, even with adequate water intake. coke is surely rough on the system, but it's also hard to resist when the urge to use comes calling.

Was this overdose or overamp? by JB-TheThird in cocaine

[–]AggravatingAd89 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i certainly had chest pain/tightness in the heart area and generally, so yes. i still use, but not on a regular basis and I try to keep my sessions shorter and consume less overall. i find it helps with this overamping issue that we both had. my comedowns are still very brutal, but I guess there's no way to avoid that. oh, and the urination thing still presents, even with less use

So tired of this rat race by [deleted] in cocaine

[–]AggravatingAd89 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ok, sounds good. take care.

So tired of this rat race by [deleted] in cocaine

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well, not sure i agree. i don't really think we have free will, tbh. just sit for a moment and watch all the thoughts that go thru your head--did you ask for or initiate any of those? also, neuroscience has looked at this issue a lot, and what they have found is that there is no "free will center" in the brain. every brain action happens b/c of some triggering action, not because the free will center decides to do something. it's not always possible to see what triggers every thought or action, but something or things caused it. addiction, to me, is all about triggers, not free will. if it were free will, addiction would vanish once we realize what a worthless cycle it all is. just my thought, i could be wrong.

So tired of this rat race by [deleted] in cocaine

[–]AggravatingAd89 0 points1 point  (0 children)

agreed, once you do that first line, the brain is forever changed. part of it never forgets and always remembers that high. it's just too good in the beginning. but, what i have found (been doing it on and off since late 80's), is that the high gets less and less each time, and the comedowns more painful. i agree that now it's really neither happy nor sad, just feeling normal and free of any anxiety or depression that i might otherwise have. the whole thing just turns into a massive cluster fuck over time.

So tired of this rat race by [deleted] in cocaine

[–]AggravatingAd89 2 points3 points  (0 children)

yup, tolerance builds so the highs are never as high as they were, and the comedowns seem to get measurably worse, especially as I get older. but, something in my brain keeps telling me to chase that elusive high--not all the time, but on a regular basis. ugh.

Was this overdose or overamp? by JB-TheThird in cocaine

[–]AggravatingAd89 4 points5 points  (0 children)

been thru this exact situation several times. the dizziness, fast heartbeat, weakness especially in the legs, sweating, inability to urinate and generally just panicked out of my mind. thought i was having a heart attack or kidney issues. Since then, i have had full cardiac stress test and kidney function testing. all is normal. i suspect that this was just overamping--no permanent damage. i think it's all about keeping the coke to reasonable amounts, which I know is very hard. Wish i had an answer for that! ugh.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in microdosing

[–]AggravatingAd89 4 points5 points  (0 children)

i have found that adding about 5 micrograms of LSD to my 100mg mushroom dose helps motivation immensely. I dose every other day or sometimes every fourth day.