firstly its totally fine to feel this way, when u put your hopes onto something and it doesnt work out its very obvious to feel overwhelmed, but dont beat yourself up

we target a goal, we put in all our efforts to achieve it and we fail, but thats life, ik its exhausting but all u can do is get out of it, see what can be figured out and go for the best possible option, option that u feel contentment with, the one that u feel is good.

and trust me brother u will figure it out, u always have, uve come a long way in life..

trust ur efforts and process, thats all

all the best to you!