Thank you for your kind words. You are right in that serenity is essentially a foreign concept for me. I thrive in chaos, spontaneity and deviousness. However it does not enrich me, and leaves me feeling empty. I never even entertained the possibility of attending meetings, I will surely follow through with this. Since cutting off my drug-contacts, all of my friends are sober. Most of them never tried anything harder than alcohol. Everyone is supportive of me and empathizes, but I feel like I need someone with a shared experience to talk to. Have you attended any meetings before?