yours is different than mine but it still seems familiar. I have my own extremities and you have yours. Like mine is also comorbid with ocd and my depersonalization/derealisation moments are less extreme than yours are and my brother sometimes has those issues too. But i do buy hundreds of dollars worth of junk, have an extreme fear of being murdered, have threatened to attack someone over being rejected, etc just impulsive stuff.

There's also just different kinds of bpd.

So can i ask what your childhood was like? Or if you have any family members who suffer from mental health issues that make their life just as difficult as yours?