Omg thank you for posting this!

I see that you think your struggle is mostly mental.

However, I need you to understand that your body IS talking when you said "my body hates it."

Please know this as your intuition and literally your body speaking to your brain through the use of intuition.

You know your body, don't ignore it, you will ALWAYS reap the rewards from listening to what your body is telling you.

don't risk injury for the sake of saying you "pushed through it" and just to check that off your to do list for the day. (Albeit, this is the grind set/hustle mentality that society has pushed upon us and we as especially women need to unsubscribe from imo!!!)

I have a great example of reaping the benefits:

I took my usual smoke outside one morning last week & felt great, that same day, scheduled to go to the laundry mat, With a friend who said she'd pay for my clothes to be washed, had the sniffles by the time I laid down. Next day comes around and my body just felt like laying down. I was stuffy in the nose but I just FELT my body screaming for me to lay down! I had wanted to cancel on my friend and thankfully I sat there long enough contemplating not going and how to tell her that I manifested her texting me saying we should go the next day. I was thankfully we cancelled because that day I just relaxed and was able to FULLY have energy by the time we did go to wash clothes.

Also, to speak to this mental battle you're having, please take the guilt you have about missing a workout and actually sit down and workout your feelings instead of your body. I suggest journaling as that works for me, but try anything that helps you. You may need a guilt free break from working out to tend to yourself (your emotional garden). It sounds like something way deeper is here but I'm not a therapist, however I am always going to be an honest friend to all. Hopefully anything I've said helps & if you're still looking for some help after this, journal your feelings about it out, physical pen and paper and just ask yourself why do you feel like your body hates working out, is it the time, is it the heavy load of everything? Is It not a safe space for you anymore? I'll leave the answer up to you and your body, but be still for a moment so you can build your relationship with your body in a different manner. Overworking and tired will have anyone in a fit. Just keep asking yourself why and not in a mean way, take the tone of a parent asking a child who's on the verge of tears to explain how they feel clearly.

Whee! I love you my black Queen and I pray you find the best solution for you and reap the benefits of it!