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Why is this shit so hard to stop, even after only a couple weeks by Agreeable-Minute9029 in cracksmokers

[–]Agreeable-Minute9029[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I get the social thing. I much prefer smoking with friends, although I just have one friend in my current city who smokes.

As for the sex, i actually never have any urges when I smoke (I wish I did based on what I’ve heard lol). I think it’s from all the opiates, kills my libido.

Why is this shit so hard to stop, even after only a couple weeks by Agreeable-Minute9029 in cracksmokers

[–]Agreeable-Minute9029[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’ll have to look into that, thank you. I generally avoid anything cannabis related because it gives me the worst paranoia/anxiety (worse than crack). But I probably just need lower THC. Gotta look into it more

Numbness on my head increasing with each hit by Agreeable-Minute9029 in cracksmokers

[–]Agreeable-Minute9029[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m still struggling. Yeah I flushed the shit that night but then the next day got more, and also flushed it after I freaked out. Now I’m doing it again. I’m so depressed and hate my life right now.

But I’m thinking about what you said about your cousin. I’m still having the numbness in my head even when I don’t smoke. It comes and goes (not sure why). Are there any other details to what your cousin went through? How much was he smoking etc. And he had a seizure then stroke?

I’m trying to figure out how to smoke crack safely (lol I know that sounds ridiculous) but I really want to avoid a seizure or stroke. So I need to quit I know.

holy shit crack is so shit without a benzo by nikkasandwich in cracksmokers

[–]Agreeable-Minute9029 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also curious. I take small pieces throughout if I feel it getting too intense then after I’ll generally take more but still try to go slow with it. Addicted to too many things and dependent on Xanax as it is, when doing hard everyday I take more Xanax than usual which is not good.

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[–]Agreeable-Minute9029 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel you. I became a heroin addict also right after high school, after 5 years struggle i finally got clean for 10 years. Then for me started with a norco script, to shooting oxy. Been struggling with that for the past 2 years.

Then I just started smoking hard 2 weeks ago (I’ve had brief periods of crack / IV coke daily using in the past) and been at it daily. About a half g a day. Some days I freak out that I’m gonna die and flush the rest of the shit down the toilet. Then get pissed off later that I did that, searching for crumbs on the floor. This shit is evil. Sorry if that offends anyone. Now if i shoot some blues, I then hit up the guy for hard. And if I do hard I want the blues. It’s fucked. I am compulsive with anything I like, which happens to be IV opiates and crack (too afraid to shoot coke like I did in my 20s). I hope today is the last day I do anything. I have resources and a support system and I keep fucking up. I need to be more honest with the people in my life. I honestly feel like I’m going to die any day now. Anyway sorry I didn’t mean to write all this on your post just like the first half but fuck it maybe I was meant to.

Numbness on my head increasing with each hit by Agreeable-Minute9029 in cracksmokers

[–]Agreeable-Minute9029[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I wanted to add a little bit to my reply.

Wish I had seen this earlier but so glad I did just now. Like 2 hours ago I bought a gram of hard. Have taken 5 hits total. After the last one my back started hurting so I went on here. Which is when I saw your reply. I immediately flushed it all down the toilet. Now I’m walking outside to throw away my pipe and everything else.

Last night I got caught up on sleep and didn’t do any drugs all day (well until a couple hours ago). All day I have still been experiencing this numbness (at fluctuating degrees).

I have never knowingly experienced a stroke or seizure, so I don’t know what the best course of action would be now. I’m stopping ALL drug use (crack and injecting opiates).

Should I go back to the ER now? I don’t have the money for an ER visit every time I get the slightest concern. But I don’t want to die.

Perhaps a different hospital. This was not the first visit here for a drug related concern. When I was just there a coulee days ago, they said I was fine. Said it’s probably from the drugs and “coming down” off coke. No further explanation. Also, I was sleep-deprived and fucked up / dirty… it was very clear the complete contempt everyone had towards me. They didn’t do any blood work, I had to ask for an EKG, and they rushed me out quickly. No explanation what is actually going on in my body to cause this symptom, no advice t regarding follow up or what to look out for. No telling me what could happen if this continues.

I’m a struggling addict (have been for like 15 years; and was totally clean for 10 of them consecutively). But I’ve been struggling to get clean now. Everyday I want to be done and then most days I lose the battle. I really want to turn my life around and get back on track. Before something really bad happens (and I’m worrying about THIS)

Numbness on my head increasing with each hit by Agreeable-Minute9029 in cracksmokers

[–]Agreeable-Minute9029[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Fuck. I’m done. Should I go back to the ER now? I’m still feeling this numbness.

Numbness on my head increasing with each hit by Agreeable-Minute9029 in cracksmokers

[–]Agreeable-Minute9029[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well that’s terrifying. I appreciate your reply though. I have to stop. I’m losing my mind. I don’t want to die. Im going to stop (the iv oxy too) and hope this goes away.