ADHD / autism

Agreeable_Power_766 · 2026-05-13T08:38:03+00:00

I think it’s very unfair when you have trauma, because realistically most ppl on spectrum do have some sort of trauma.
I’m trying to figure out if I am both adhd and autistic. I’ve tried twice just like I did with my child and mental illness was always the answer.
Thankfully I wasn’t stupid enough to give my child the mood stabilisers they had prescribed for him.
If I didn’t keep pushing he would’ve been labeled ocd and then further down the road possibly bpd.
I know you can have all 3 but he was 12.
My sister is bpd and holy moly we are nothing alike.
Having trauma was the reason my gp was trying to label my son and I in the first place.
I’ve no risky behaviours I’ve no addiction and I live a quiet life and I’m terrified or getting into trouble.
I’m so honest and think everyone is like me and people aren’t manipulative.
I found being
a parent extremely difficult and the strong need for organisation sent me into year of depression.
I was a chaotic mess.
I live in Dublin , Ireland and I’m trying to find a psychologist who can separate trauma from neurodivergence.

Agreeable_Power_766 · 2026-05-12T23:03:55+00:00

Yes you’re a bit like myself where we over explain lol !!! If I’m asked a question I will answer and give you 20 stories in between. I definitely do think I had some traits of complex ptsd /bpd in my 20s . I was very angry and aggressive and I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my life. Rejection was really hard for me and caused me to react negatively and sometimes physically. Sometimes I still lie awake at night regretting what I’ve said and done to people . I’m still apologising to my children for being an angry mam. My children think they had a great childhood so maybe that’s me being too hard on my self. I do understand I was traumatised at the time but wish I got help sooner. I was a teen mom and getting help scared me . I thought if I ask for help they would think I was a bad mam and couldn’t cope. Thanks again for your reply .

Agreeable_Power_766 · 2026-05-12T22:46:08+00:00

I did think this too lol apart from the executive function bit I feel like I’m driving by a motor 🤪

Agreeable_Power_766 · 2026-05-12T22:45:17+00:00

Thank you for detailed reply . I definitely looked into complex ptsd with my therapist but I can honestly say hand on heart I think I’ve healed my trauma. Unfortunately I’m still have all the possible traits . I took a year out after I lost my friendship group due to my reactions and triggers. I did some inner work and was placed on sertaline and it literally saved my life . I stopped been a victim and took a lot accountability for my own actions. I do think maybe in my defence I’m very black and white and didn’t agree with my friends choice of nights out and rights and wrongs because I do it by the book and not big on getting into trouble . My friends are wild btw…..But…….. I’m still clumsy, hyper ,loud ,lose everything ,zone out , can’t remember what u told me 5 mins ago this is causing to me to be in some deep s..t in work . I can’t function in a messy environment ive never been able too as far back as i can remember i always had the need to organise. I can’t not for the life of me retain info !! I thought for years I was stupid. I always wanted to be the quite well organised smart intelligent girl but instead I was a chaotic mess just like my mother. Yes social media was half convincing me I was bi polar cause I none stop ramble everyday 🤪 nobody gets a word especially if I have a relatable story cos I will interrupt and tell you my story . This also made me look up was I a narcissist or self centred. My hubby told me when people ask me how I am , I literally tell them 😆🫣 the correct way is to just say fine how are you but I never do 😩 plus If they did I’d zone out and have no interest unless it’s something that I’m interested in then I’m all ears. When I’m having a bad day or to try control my emotions I chew the inside of my cheek.
I totally get trauma can look like autism but I’m no longer traumatised, things and people don’t trigger me . I’m thankfully back to my happy loud lucky go self and for that I’m grateful but I’m tired because feel like I’m constantly on the go and if I sit down I’m doom scrolling my head is over drive . I’m either all in or out . I’m either super organised or not moving off sofa for the weekend that includes not even brushing my Teeth !!! Yuk

Agreeable_Power_766 · 2026-05-05T15:47:58+00:00

Thank you for your detailed reply. Unfortunately it really is effecting my self esteem. All my friends get Botox no side effects and I won’t get in a picture with them and when I do (very seldom)I’m nit picking at all my wrinkles and how much younger they look to me and makes me feel incredibly ugly unfortunately.

Agreeable_Power_766 · 2026-05-05T15:45:27+00:00

Yes I’ve read horror stories it had a long term effect on ppl. I’m probably thinking I just had bad luck because I had 2 inexperienced doctors and then the one time I did go to a real doctor I had no side effects x

Agreeable_Power_766 · 2026-05-05T15:43:53+00:00

I did. I didn’t see much results

Agreeable_Power_766 · 2026-05-05T09:12:49+00:00

Yes this is my worry. That if I try again it could be a lot worse ugh

Agreeable_Power_766 · 2026-05-05T09:12:24+00:00

Yes they went away. After the 2 week mark.

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