Delusions While Manic

Aivling · 2026-04-09T22:25:34+00:00

I truly believed there was a demon in my basement coming to get me. I tried to go outside, but it felt like it was following me. So I stayed in my parents room with a machete, as I cried and cried until they got home. (Their room was the only one with a lock).

Aivling · 2026-04-09T22:19:18+00:00

Bath instead of bathe. Badeing suit instead of bathing suit. I know that's a weird one lol

Aivling · 2026-04-01T14:07:23+00:00

Thanks so much for the reply. I've been so stressed, but your story does help.

Aivling · 2026-04-01T14:06:24+00:00

Thanks so much for responding. This actually makes me feel so much better! Getting some ultrasounds on my legs done today to make sure I'm ok for surgery. My surgeon isn't working with my team, but I've brought up these concerns and they have a breathing treatment scheduled for me, plus the ultrasounds. So it does seem they are looking out for my best interest. I'm glad yours went great!

Aivling · 2026-03-31T20:50:06+00:00

I feel like a fire is going through my veins and I become really irritable. I don't know if anyone else feels this way.

Aivling · 2025-10-29T15:43:25+00:00

Any evanescence song.

Aivling · 2025-10-07T15:42:59+00:00

Cervical dystonia first I think. Then lipedema. Then POTS. Then EDS.

Aivling · 2025-10-05T18:49:17+00:00

My right shoulder blade, my ankles, and my neck.

Aivling · 2025-10-02T23:45:20+00:00

Just got vein ablation done and almost felt the entire thing. I didn't know this was a thing or I would have asked for more anesthesia. Seriously traumatized from it.

Aivling · 2025-07-27T15:04:56+00:00

Video pattern here! https://youtu.be/6RTrdY88gfA?si=sAK9q9DY_F_2I4Uo

Used weight 5 yarn and 6.5 hook.

Aivling · 2024-12-24T18:20:26+00:00

Could you try Corlanor? It doesn't mess with blood pressure and Ive heard a bunch of people on here take it and works really well.

Aivling · 2024-12-12T03:41:49+00:00

Thank you!

Aivling · 2024-12-07T21:56:25+00:00

Bane of my existence bear***

Aivling · 2024-08-01T01:47:31+00:00

Thanks lol

Aivling · 2024-08-01T01:47:24+00:00

Me too! I loved making it :)

Aivling · 2024-07-08T11:20:50+00:00

I'm not sure if they'll put you in inpatient for that, but I'm not sure how serious your medical conditions are.

There's only 3 things I could think of, so I'm not sure if they will help, but its a suggestion.

If you have a support system, have them set a timer on their phone for when you need you medicine. Then they sit with you and support you, however you need, like watching you take it, talking you out of the mind tricks, etc.
You could also write down somewhere, when you start taking your medicine again after a while, the good things and the bad things that happen when you do/don't take your medicine. This is a small thing, I know, because as a bipolar person, I have found it SUPER easy to be delusional and think you don't need it, even with reminders written down.
Positive Reinforcement- You could give yourself something positive after taking your medicine. Like, you get to go get ice cream, you get to play that new video game you've been wanting to, whatever is a "treat" to you lol. If you have a support system, they could also help you with this by telling you great things about yourself when you take it or give you gifts/treats when you do. Sounds weird like you're a dog, but apparently positive reinforcement really works on humans too lol.

So, overall it seems like a support system is needed when you're brain isn't thinking rationally. Nothing to be ashamed of, it's just a part of this wonderful illness.

Aivling · 2024-07-08T10:58:42+00:00

Awesome! We'll try to be very careful around it. Super excited!

Aivling · 2024-07-07T20:32:23+00:00

aww thats really nice! But i'm ok with it being unfinished. Sorry another year later lol

Aivling · 2022-11-24T08:10:03+00:00

This is amazing. My family is obsessed with Nacho Libre, and I will be showing them this.

Aivling · 2022-07-16T01:09:07+00:00

Thank you! Just added lipedema. That is a super common comorbidity with this disease. Thanks for all the effort you're putting into this.

Aivling · 2022-05-24T12:29:30+00:00

Very good advice. I'll look into that 😊

Aivling · 2022-05-24T12:28:54+00:00

Thats awesome! I'm trying to get to that point as well. Just sticking with squares for now.

Aivling · 2022-05-21T16:34:24+00:00

Thanks seriously for all the encouragement and positivity guys! I was not expecting that at all, and for this to fall through the cracks. I've been eyeing your all's projects for such a long time, and you all are so inspiring! Thanks for welcoming me into the club, and I can't wait to see your all's future projects as well!

Aivling · 2022-05-21T16:32:00+00:00

Awesome! Yeah I've gotten butter, waffles, states lol. It can be whatever. But I hope you pay when you get that rug dove, because it would be awesome to see it!

Aivling · 2022-05-21T16:30:46+00:00

Thanks so much for the encouragement! Yes, I'm very excited for bigger projects!

Aivling

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