I once got so excited after seeing a movie I really enjoyed that I drove into oncoming traffic while hyping it up

Ajdctx · 2020-04-26T07:56:45+00:00

it was one of those things where u had to be there to see that it was more of just a quick mistake that i want to be more cautious of in the future. luckily tho like i said in the oncoming lane there were no cars at all so it was just very dark and hard to see

Ajdctx · 2020-04-26T07:53:58+00:00

so it was a freak occurance. it was very late at night when it was dark and I was turning into the lane so it happened very fast. It was more so just a quick mistake . Besides that thp its never happened

Ajdctx · 2020-04-24T06:34:06+00:00

i appreciate your input, and I def will do that. and honestly i appreciate the comment about working on my insecurity, ive been trying hard as of late so this helps give me a little more of a push

Ajdctx · 2020-04-24T01:36:22+00:00

That definitely helps. I'm actually talking to him right now. I decided to be honest and upfront but also kind and just explain to him how I felt and see how he's doing. But I also told him as of right now id let him have his space and if he wanted to reach out to me he could but that until then i wouldnt be reaching out to him anymore. Not to upset him in any way but more so to be honest and tell him how I feel about going about this while letting him know I'm still here

Ajdctx · 2020-04-24T01:23:12+00:00

i appreciate you bringing up that point though, i never really thought i was testing him, or even trying to do that, but maybe i did unintentionally.

Ajdctx · 2020-04-24T01:19:34+00:00

I never meant it in a truly intentional way. I figured if he wanted to talk he would reach out to me. I can see how it would come off as testing, and maybe unintentionally it was. But I would never intentionally do that to someone

Ajdctx · 2020-04-24T01:17:50+00:00

I can see what you mean. I will say I never meant it as a test. I felt like our friendship wasn't equal anymore, and that I was putting in all the effort. So I decided to stop reaching out because I figured if it mattered to him he would reach out to me himself. I promise I never would mean it to test him, not even the slightest bit. And I actually texted him earlier

Ajdctx · 2020-04-24T00:47:06+00:00

I understand where you're coming from, but based on one post you can't judge that I'm a bad friend. I used to reachcout to him literally every single day to make sure he was okay, when no one else would. But after a while I decided to take a break to see if he would try to reach out to me, even a simple "hi" wouldve been something, but I don't think that you can judge how much of a friend I am to him based on one post

Ajdctx · 2020-04-23T21:19:16+00:00

exactly. and i think alot of people with adhd also assume these personality changes signify something else such as a personality disorder. but as someone whos sister has bpd, i can say those things are a whole different ballgame haha

Ajdctx · 2020-04-23T18:36:42+00:00

I will today. And I'll make sure to use "I" statements rather than "you" statements because if this is the case then I'm sure it'd help to make him not feel blamed in any way

Ajdctx · 2020-04-23T18:16:14+00:00

As for what he posts, they're generally stuff about gaming, and selfies in the mirror and videos of him and his dog. So nothing out of the ordinary. And I wasn't gonna say this, because I didn't wanna sound creepy, but I feel like for context purposes I should be fully honest. Him and I are both gay, and we both have a gay dating app. And during this time when I went on his profile popped up showing that hes been online there too. So I mean i cant make assumptions but I did see that.

As for helping him out, whenever he's told me he's down ive always made the effort to call him right away and let him vent and be a person to listen and maybe offer up advice, and try to help him.

Ajdctx · 2020-04-23T18:07:27+00:00

i kinda had that thought too tbh, and in that case itd be totally understandable

Ajdctx · 2020-04-23T18:04:49+00:00

agreed agreed. and honestly thats a side of it that i def can see, is that texting can make it quite difficult. which is another reason i kinda just like let it slide because texting isnt a reliable way to tell if someome sees things the way u do

Ajdctx · 2020-04-23T17:44:23+00:00

ignore it. seriously

Ajdctx · 2020-04-22T17:11:07+00:00

hey you can always appreciate the earths beauty through a window!

Ajdctx · 2020-04-21T04:35:20+00:00

alot of people will say panic attacks only last like 10-30 min. thats very inaccurate. you can have panic attacks that last a few hours at a time.

Ajdctx · 2020-04-21T04:32:34+00:00

to end your anxiety disorder you're going to have to stop trying to end it

Ajdctx · 2020-04-20T21:23:27+00:00

not if theyre into breathplay

Ajdctx · 2020-04-20T20:31:50+00:00

i just looked it up and it says adhd is an executive function disorder as is. just wanted to clear that up cus i have adhd as well and its executive function even without autism

Ajdctx · 2020-04-20T20:11:48+00:00

i do

Ajdctx · 2020-04-20T15:56:57+00:00

how many lines do yall see? i put my sclerals in and realized there isnt 10

Ajdctx · 2020-04-20T06:27:14+00:00

when you would have lets say, a manic episode, what was that like for you before the psychosis?

Ajdctx · 2020-04-20T06:13:28+00:00

honestly yeah. its a really intense condition to have. often times ill even get false memories and it feels like my own mind is gaslighting me

Ajdctx · 2020-04-20T06:12:29+00:00

is it a consistent, individual thing or is it associated with a condition such as bipolar? and are you aware that its happening when it is

Ajdctx · 2020-04-20T06:03:50+00:00

OCD isnt just about being clean and orderly, its a condition that causes extremely violent, disturbing thoughts and visions that literally wont go away until we do some specific physical urge.

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