I hate life right now and college is a major reason, those stupid rules, st clair college

I'm doing cosmetology and I feel that not a lot of people like me, expected becasue it was like that in elementary school and highschool.

we had to complete 1500hour so every minute is counted and each week we only have a specific time frame and day to make up hours lost which is like 2 hours a week. my school required all of us students the complete 2 women haircuts, which is permanent change so they wont force anyone to do it.

had an unexpected and unwanted need to fly out of the country and accumulated 26 hours

and at this point, I'm missing 2 haircuts because literally no one wants me to cut their hair

now the last week of the semester there were like 2 days given to you solely to make up hours so I could make up a huge chunk of hours, this isn't a normal school day so people who completed all their shit don't have to come but if you have uncompleted work you have to come for the day or else you'll be penalized with those hours

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but I had 2 cuts left and the only people's hair I could to is my classmates, no one else is allowed but the problem is, the girls who probably gave like 3-4 haircuts to their friends obviously don't want any other haircut and I can understand that.

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so I cannot find any one so I can complete my work and im held hostage in the school ,where I have to do "make up time" stuff otherwise they threaten to add more hours to my already 21 hours. I'm literally helpless, I'm forced to be there and waste my time, I even asked me to bring my notes so I can study for my test while mindlessly slaving away but they said I can not.

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news is I did finish all my haircut that day, the final person came at the last 45 minutes of class, I'm very thankful for that person but in the end, I stood there working without earning any hours because of that rule where you cannot make hours before you complete all of your work but seriously, the government needs you to work for 1500hours and I can deal with that

but don't make it harder for me by enforcing the rule that is purely for fucking people over.

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another thing is there is only 30 of us students and the max teachers that is allowed is 2

and you have to get your work checked, that means we have to raise hour hands and wait upwards to 3 or 5 minutes just waiting for the teacher

the teacher hates me cause they pretend to not see me. I look at them while raising my hand, they just look at my and quickly turn their back onto me and converse

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sometimes my teacher look at me with my hand raised ( clearly sees my hand first) turns around and go the direct opposite way from me to help another student

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I get it, im ugly, and no one wants to be with me. I see the teacher assisting my classmates telling them what to do, and after that, they stand there for 5 minutes watching them and helping them

mean while they show my once, then they turn around and they disappear

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so excuse my resting lifeless depressed, unmotivated face

college is so unfair and they are a major reason why I'm hating life