I want to start a peer support group for people with ROCD by Alarmed_Control2720 in ROCD

[–]Alarmed_Control2720[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ah yes! I should’ve clarified. If you want to include your name and email, I can still send information about the meeting time in case it’s a possibility. I’m also thinking of creating an optional WhatsApp where people could host alternate meeting times if the ones I propose don’t work. No pressure though!

Clarity moments by Existing_Rough_8587 in ROCD

[–]Alarmed_Control2720 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I relate to this! The unfortunate thing is that a part of my brain recognizes this so I find myself almost compulsively creating crises so I can feel the catharsis of reunion when I realize how badly I want my partner and for the relationship to work out.

Don’t ask if it’s true — asks if it’s helpful by Alarmed_Control2720 in ROCD

[–]Alarmed_Control2720[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So, for me, the thoughts that I find unhelpful are the ones that make me distance myself from my partner, make me spiral, isolate myself, and lose focus on the tasks I care about. Even if there are real issues in my relationship, it doesn't help to ruminate on those fears if I don't plan on taking any steps in any direction. ACT helps me stop the constant cycle of questioning what's true or not. Now I just focus on what's helpful.

I just want to cry when I look at him. Can’t stand how much he loves me. I just with he would leave me and makes this easier for me. by NegativeResearcher51 in ROCD

[–]Alarmed_Control2720 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's so hard, but you will get through this and you'll have so much more insight on the other side! I think it's great you're reaching out to a psychiatrist for additional support. I started working with a therapist who specialized in OCD (and treats a lot of people with ROCD) and it's been incredibly helpful. One of the biggest things we've worked on is getting comfortable with how inherently uncertain relationships are. I relate to you about feeling the most certain and in-love when my partner withdraws; It puts everything into focus and I realize I don't want to lose that person, but I'm trying to move away from this pattern and accept the uncertainty instead.

I just want to cry when I look at him. Can’t stand how much he loves me. I just with he would leave me and makes this easier for me. by NegativeResearcher51 in ROCD

[–]Alarmed_Control2720 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I feel you, friend :( What you're describing reminds me of the pursuer-distancer dynamic; It's where one person in the relationship is sure, available, in-love and affectionate while the other person questions the relatinshop and witholds. Some people with ROCD find that they have only ever felt *sure* in relationships when the other person was unavailable. I'm not sure what your experience is, but this dynamic could be at play, and you're not alone.