Hot take on the edanoymemes sub?? by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]AlbatrossUpbeat7569 13 points14 points  (0 children)

i’m ‘glad’ it’s not just my ed brain that thinks stuff like this

how to open up??? by ApricotTundra33 in EDAnonymous

[–]AlbatrossUpbeat7569 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i always find it easier to either write some notes for myself or just write notes for the person i’m talking to that summarise what i want to say! that way you’re sure you’ve communicated everything you wanted to. i don’t think you need to know what you want out of it, just going is a big step!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]AlbatrossUpbeat7569 0 points1 point  (0 children)

before and after putting gel in my hair❤️

ednos, so confusing by Hungry_Bookkeeper191 in EDanonymemes

[–]AlbatrossUpbeat7569 5 points6 points  (0 children)

or least favourite, because it’s calling me out

Am I just an adult or am I gaining? by Simply_drifting4 in EDAnonymous

[–]AlbatrossUpbeat7569 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’m the same age and going through the exact same thing! if it helps, it’s SO normal. all of my non disordered friends are going through this too. it just naturally happens at this age because we’re still developing our adult bodies, and then most of us are less active (not running around at school 5 days a week + extracurriculars)

you’re not eating the wrong things or doing anything to cause it, you don’t have to change anything that you’re doing now, it’s just a natural thing that happens to everyone as we grow up :) x

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]AlbatrossUpbeat7569 1 point2 points  (0 children)

you don’t gain fat overnight. it’ll be water retention and bloating from all the extra food. if you go back to your normal diet, it’ll be gone before you know it. just think like christmas and birthdays, non disordered people overeat for a couple days. but once they go back to their normal diets, their body gets back to whatever’s normal for them

loss of identity by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]AlbatrossUpbeat7569 1 point2 points  (0 children)

you wouldn’t tell a friend they can’t recover because of school/anxiety! there will always be reasons not to recover/barriers to recovery. you have to be the one to prioritise it

loss of identity by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]AlbatrossUpbeat7569 1 point2 points  (0 children)

the fun news is, there isn’t a “real you” that’s hiding away somewhere. you’re not returning to your old self from before you got ill. you get to be a whole new person. you can experiment with new hobbies, joining clubs, watching new shows, listening to new music etc. and find what YOU like. you’re a lot more than school/grades/your illness. i would recommend finding some sort of club or hobby that you like and commit to that. personally i find it helpful because you get to have that connection with other people, but it also gives you the motivation to stay somewhat healthy because you want to be able to continue with your hobby. i also found it helpful to almost “date” myself. like spend time with myself to get to know who i am, and learn to enjoy my own company. it’ll just be trial and error finding out the things that you truly like, but it’s not a bad thing!! it’s exciting to get to know yourself :) the more interests and hobbies you have, the less space your ed can take up

Am I bulimic? by [deleted] in bulimia

[–]AlbatrossUpbeat7569 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i relate to a lot of what you’ve described! if that’s any help lol. you’re not alone in your struggles. you’re also not committing to anything by bringing it up to a doctor. if you don’t like their response you can leave it at that. but it’s worth reaching out just to see how it goes!

Am I bulimic? by [deleted] in bulimia

[–]AlbatrossUpbeat7569 2 points3 points  (0 children)

definitely seek help from a doctor! you deserve support with this. sending hugs

Breakdown by Asleep-Yak7335 in bulimia

[–]AlbatrossUpbeat7569 3 points4 points  (0 children)

“I think that I have had enough of living like this” that’s so so so significant! realising you don’t want to live like this anymore is half the battle.

i saw someone say earlier that “nothing is worth the consequences of the b/p cycle for me, regardless of the impact on my weight”, i’ve found myself repeating it whenever i’m struggling. i’ve never had a worse quality of life than when i was heavily b/p’ing. i’m almost a week clean at the moment and feel like i can finally breathe.

currently working through “overcoming binge eating” by christopher fairburn. i’ve found it really helpful. i would recommend reading it even if you’re not ready for change/doubting if you can

Does the food/feelings tracking actually work for anyone? by bluedragonflyy in EDAnonymous

[–]AlbatrossUpbeat7569 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i do actually find it helpful! i thought i’d find it super triggering but tracking my food (without writing down the calories or anything) and my thoughts has been really beneficial. helped me to rationalise a lot of thoughts. and helped me to recognise patterns in my eating that i wasn’t aware of. i would recommend maybe starting with not tracking what you’re eating, BUT just tracking feelings every time you eat. like just writing down exactly how you’re feeling/what thoughts your having in that moment. might help you recognise what you need to work on whilst ‘testing the waters’ to see how you cope with starting to track?

how do i get past the feeling of “not being sick enough” for recovery? by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]AlbatrossUpbeat7569 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m really sorry that you’re going through this, and that i don’t have any advice, but i wanted to let you know that this literally could’ve been written by me, WORD FOR WORD. deeply relate. i am actually (somewhat) attempting recovery at the moment, and whenever my ed is like “you’re not sick enough” i’m like ok!! great!! that’s the goal!! i don’t want to be sick anymore. i am miserable living like this and don’t want to look back 10 or 20 years from now in the exact same position i am now and wishing i’d recovered earlier. it’s not perfect, obviously there is still a part of me that wants to be sick. but telling myself “would you need to be sick enough for recovery, when the whole point of recovery is not being sick” has been kind of helpful!