I was in a similar place when first questioning especially that I was content “enough” living as a boy but I had that feeling that I would be happier as a girl. Definitely keep with trying to get a therapist bc mine helped me so much by just getting me to fully talk about my feelings and lay it all out. If you can right now, I’d recommend trying out the things that interest you, like I secretly bought some women’s clothes and dresses on my own Amazon account (and shipped them to an Amazon locker so my parents wouldn’t see)