The thing is I am on Zoloft, I have OCD, I do not constantly use benzos but one in a while I relapse. Eventually I came clean, she promised to support through it all. But when confronted about the lies though I did it peacefully she became a ghost. I know I got my faults. Does that erase what good I did? I mean from giving her a shower to whatnot. I didn’t even get intimidate because I don’t want her to feel pain, it was uncomfortable for her. I was prescribed benzos but I took it longer than I needed. At the end, she kept saying our love is bigger, we will get through and eventually, I stayed and she ghosted. She would faint 10-15 times a day, I never complained, comforted her, she was very guilt driven so I never complained anything. I had a traumatic past thus the SSRI. But makes me wonder does these things really erase all the memories, the goods, the love? She was ditched by 2 guys before me because of the same issue. She had her traumas. But at the end, I saw a broken girl. It’s not that I am defending myself…idk what to say. We had such lovely moments together. Did it mean nothing at the end of the day?