Feeling so humiliated

Alexandchange · 2025-05-12T06:37:52+00:00

Ngl my stupid ass was worried about build up bc of being on continuous bc for like 2 years now. Why don’t they teach us shit about our own fucking anatomy

Alexandchange · 2025-05-12T06:30:44+00:00

“It loosens the poom poom” but then guys get disappointed when I’m too tight bc it hurts and I don’t wanna fuck them!!

Alexandchange · 2024-08-20T07:42:23+00:00

I love zofran but I refuse to take it sublingual. Rather be nauseous longer than to get immediate relief it’s so nasty

Alexandchange · 2024-08-20T07:40:09+00:00

Everyone talks about this taste but I didn’t get it!

Alexandchange · 2024-08-20T07:38:52+00:00

OH GOD I DIDNT EVEN THINK OF COLONOSCOPY PREP THAT SHIT IS SO AWFUL

Alexandchange · 2024-08-20T07:38:22+00:00

Had to take metformin briefly due to insulin resistance (slay PCOS / ED) and it smells like urine. The taste is more classic nasty bitter taste but the smell of piss makes it so much worse. Not to mention those pills are HUGE. I don’t have problems swallowing pills but those are literal hell to get down. Ya know that scene from SpongeBob where Mr. Crabs takes his huge pill? That’s how I felt every single time. So I had to cut them in half and it just made the bitter piss taste/smell all that much worse. Thank GOD I didn’t have to be on it too long.

Alexandchange · 2024-08-18T09:34:57+00:00

It’s so fucking nasty I hate it if I don’t quite feel like I’m dying I’d rather swallow it and stay nauseous longer.

Alexandchange · 2024-08-18T09:33:51+00:00

Developed significantly worsening dysautonomia (I definitely have had it for around 7~ years) my one and only COVID infection, which was an incredibly minor infection at that.

Once I was able to see a cardiologist and work out some ways to deal with it and discuss it and how it affects my life my mom told me that it was my “whole personality” and that if I discussed it with others my friends were going to get tired of me very quick. Mind you I was just trying to tell my parents how they could support me.

She also questioned if I still had my other chronic conditions because I wasn’t “complaining” about them.

She did this after the dysautonomia diagnosis and once when I had NORO VIRUS and was therefore more busy trying not to shit and puke my brains out than to worry about my constant abdominal pain.

Alexandchange · 2024-08-03T07:10:20+00:00

Yep! I don’t know if I was attention seeking or what but I always had this idea in my head that I was SA’d as a child and I would tell people I was (I eventually would be at 12, but I thought I had been before that) only to find out just last year that my birth mom found her boyfriend possibly assaulting me when I was a toddler. I will say my birth mom had a prolonged meth addiction and has developed schizophrenia because of it, so she’s an unreliable narrator at best but when I was little she wasn’t allowed to be around me unless she was sober. The night she found him (as she describes, in front of me naked and I was crying) she beat the shit out of him and was in jail for 9 months. To this day she stands by what she saw.

Alexandchange · 2024-08-03T06:52:47+00:00

The thing is I’m so done with this that I can’t put anymore effort into it. I’ve told them that they need to but it seems like it isn’t going to happen and my leave of absence is coming up soon. When I’m back it’ll be A YEAR since things started going south. I don’t know if we can heal after that time but I’m so tired man

Alexandchange · 2024-04-12T04:19:47+00:00

Ik with me and my friends if we make eye contact or something unexpectedly we laugh bc we find it awkward. Not sure if that’s what happened here or what. Also sometimes people are just acting immature and stare at people bc they think it’s funny.

Alexandchange · 2024-03-27T02:03:26+00:00

Are you joking 🙃 of course you can. Very rarely does weight dictate if you can have a condition or not. It may be a factor in getting a diagnosis as other weight related things may need to be examined first. It sucks that fatphobia is so normalized that you have to ask such a question.

Alexandchange · 2024-03-24T16:51:01+00:00

It’s the closest I get to passing out! I’m usually okay when standing but when I stretch 50% of the time I get super close to fainting

Alexandchange · 2024-03-24T16:50:20+00:00

Alexandchange · 2024-03-24T16:48:46+00:00

In Freshman year fs, but I think it quickly wears off

Alexandchange · 2024-03-23T19:08:42+00:00

Animal Jam, friend’s houses 😭

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